You tell me not to cry my eyes out.
How is that even possible?
I just had to go and ruin everything.
Why can't I just let my emotions flow?
Why can't I just speak my words?
I showed you how much I loved you.
I guess you didn't see.
I don't want anyone other than you.
I never have.
Everyone else is a distraction.
So I won't be lonely with you away.
If you're as upset about this as me.
Then why?
Why'd it have to be this way?
Why can't we talk about it?
You can't trust me?
What a slap in the face.
You can rely on me no matter what.
I just didn't want anyone hurt.
The reverse happened.
Everyone wound up hurt.
I'm sorry.
I didn't mean for it to end this way.
I'm sorry.
Don't apologize.
Its all my fault.
I'm sorry.
I'm going to have to disobey you again.
I'm sorry.
The tears won't just stop.
I'm sorry.
I loved you to much.
I'm sorry.
That you got to attached.
Is our love the kind that's meant to have titles?
Or is our love just the best friend?
Why is it always so complicated?
Why can't we just decide?
Is it so bad that we date?
Is it really better for us to be friends?
So neither of us will be hurt?
But aren't we supposed to get hurt in relationships?
You can trust in me.
You won't hit the ground.
I'm always there to catch you.
Someone hurts you?
I'll go beat their a**. Even if they're to much of a match for me.
Black eyes don't bother me.
But you in pain kills me.
Complications are stupid treacherous paths.
Why can't we cross them together?
Why does it have to be apart?
Why does it matter what Brittney says?
********, why does it matter what anyone says?
I just wanted you to be safe. I never wanted you to get hurt.
If this is really your decision then fine.
I'll leave it that way.
But sometimes.
Just sometimes.
I think you're lying to yourself.
Just as much as I did.
Did that happiness feel as sugary sweet to you as it did to me?
Or was I really just the rebound girl as you hinted?
Or was that just to push me away?
I haven't cried that badly yet.
I keep waiting for it to hit me.
But its just numbness.
Like my brains not functioning.
I finally realize the whole.
"this isn't happening this isn't happening" thing.
I can't wrap my head around it.
He said you were in pain.
Just as much as me.
He knew before I told him.
But why?
Why are you in pain when you told me not to cry?
Why are you doing this if it causes pain?
Just to stop possible future pain?
But why.
Why.
Why.
I don't want you in pain. I'd rather give you a huge bandaid and hug. Why can't we just talk it out? Brittney or you? Fine.
I'll choose you.
Of course I would.
I don't need anyone other than you.
I just didn't want to hurt Brittney's feelings.
That's why I tried to stay neutral...
Not to hurt you...
I should have thought it out more.
I'm not used to thinking for my actions.
I can barely control my own emotions and control what I say.
Walking on eggshells sucks.
I just can't open up.
But to you.
I thought I could.
But it was hard to talk about things that made me upset.
I didn't want you, in return, to get upset.
I was so afraid of losing you.
But now I've gone and lost you.
That damn fog has come back.
Thicker than ever.
I can't hear anything.
I can't comprehend anything.
I don't want to do anything.
I want to wait.
For possibly you to come back?
Would you?
Come back to me?
The fog hurts my chest.
It pushes the tears down my cheeks.
I'm sorry I can't stop crying.
I'm sorry it came to this.
I'm sorry it hurt.
....
I'm sorry.
How is that even possible?
I just had to go and ruin everything.
Why can't I just let my emotions flow?
Why can't I just speak my words?
I showed you how much I loved you.
I guess you didn't see.
I don't want anyone other than you.
I never have.
Everyone else is a distraction.
So I won't be lonely with you away.
If you're as upset about this as me.
Then why?
Why'd it have to be this way?
Why can't we talk about it?
You can't trust me?
What a slap in the face.
You can rely on me no matter what.
I just didn't want anyone hurt.
The reverse happened.
Everyone wound up hurt.
I'm sorry.
I didn't mean for it to end this way.
I'm sorry.
Don't apologize.
Its all my fault.
I'm sorry.
I'm going to have to disobey you again.
I'm sorry.
The tears won't just stop.
I'm sorry.
I loved you to much.
I'm sorry.
That you got to attached.
Is our love the kind that's meant to have titles?
Or is our love just the best friend?
Why is it always so complicated?
Why can't we just decide?
Is it so bad that we date?
Is it really better for us to be friends?
So neither of us will be hurt?
But aren't we supposed to get hurt in relationships?
You can trust in me.
You won't hit the ground.
I'm always there to catch you.
Someone hurts you?
I'll go beat their a**. Even if they're to much of a match for me.
Black eyes don't bother me.
But you in pain kills me.
Complications are stupid treacherous paths.
Why can't we cross them together?
Why does it have to be apart?
Why does it matter what Brittney says?
********, why does it matter what anyone says?
I just wanted you to be safe. I never wanted you to get hurt.
If this is really your decision then fine.
I'll leave it that way.
But sometimes.
Just sometimes.
I think you're lying to yourself.
Just as much as I did.
Did that happiness feel as sugary sweet to you as it did to me?
Or was I really just the rebound girl as you hinted?
Or was that just to push me away?
I haven't cried that badly yet.
I keep waiting for it to hit me.
But its just numbness.
Like my brains not functioning.
I finally realize the whole.
"this isn't happening this isn't happening" thing.
I can't wrap my head around it.
He said you were in pain.
Just as much as me.
He knew before I told him.
But why?
Why are you in pain when you told me not to cry?
Why are you doing this if it causes pain?
Just to stop possible future pain?
But why.
Why.
Why.
I don't want you in pain. I'd rather give you a huge bandaid and hug. Why can't we just talk it out? Brittney or you? Fine.
I'll choose you.
Of course I would.
I don't need anyone other than you.
I just didn't want to hurt Brittney's feelings.
That's why I tried to stay neutral...
Not to hurt you...
I should have thought it out more.
I'm not used to thinking for my actions.
I can barely control my own emotions and control what I say.
Walking on eggshells sucks.
I just can't open up.
But to you.
I thought I could.
But it was hard to talk about things that made me upset.
I didn't want you, in return, to get upset.
I was so afraid of losing you.
But now I've gone and lost you.
That damn fog has come back.
Thicker than ever.
I can't hear anything.
I can't comprehend anything.
I don't want to do anything.
I want to wait.
For possibly you to come back?
Would you?
Come back to me?
The fog hurts my chest.
It pushes the tears down my cheeks.
I'm sorry I can't stop crying.
I'm sorry it came to this.
I'm sorry it hurt.
....
I'm sorry.
