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All my life I've tried to be cheerful, kind and cute. For me, also for others, for the sake of being the one thing I wanted to be. But it's taken me 19 years to figure out that it's not what I am.
At the moment I do not know who I am, nor do I care for knowing who I am which is the saddest part. I tried. I got some merit for that. I'm on the verge of leaving the internet world. I do not know if I will, maybe I won't I'm too attached to certain simple things the internet provides. I will make a life for myself elsewhere. If you are in my friendlist now I'll keep you I guess, but I've come to realize friends aren't friends. We just hear and see what we want to and when there's something we don't like we just ignore it. Here I am being that something you don't like. So okay, keep ignoring me, I'm not yours anymore, not anyone's, don't take me for granted. Or whatever. I don't care.