Mood: Sleepy?
Song: None.
Where to start?
The sound of the cicadas mixed in with rain sounds delicious when you're upset.
Its hypnotic. If only if could lull me to sleep.
All I want is an apology.
An apology I'll never get.
But I'll keep waiting.
Ahhh.
I've come to realize why I'm so frustrated.
And upset.
You gave up something that could have stayed.
That was fine the way it was.
Selfish.
Selfish.
That's what you were.
And I don't understand why...?
I'm a selfish person to begin with but...
Not even I am that selfish.
You ran from me again.
So close you were.
But then you ran.
Further than ever this time.
I just...don't...get you.
Why do you run...?
Were you always this unstable...?
Are you that afraid of connection?
Of commitment?
Of...intimacy...?
Do you really not trust people that much...?
You didn't tell me you went off your meds.
...I don't get that either...
You told me to tell you everything,
and to open up.
...But you won't to me...?
When we were best friends you told me everything...
I knew everything about you...
...Now..I don't know anymore...
...I just. Don't know.
But what pisses me off more than anything,
Is how weak and emo distressed I am.
I hate not being near you.
Like as friends.
Or as lovers.
I hate it.
Its just weird because we're so close.
....Or we were.
Why won't you open up to me like you used to?
Even that little bit was enough..
But now all you do is get high.
That won't solve your problems.
I've tried alcohol.
It doesn't work.
It just ******** you up.
Did you change?
Or have I?
Song: None.
Where to start?
The sound of the cicadas mixed in with rain sounds delicious when you're upset.
Its hypnotic. If only if could lull me to sleep.
All I want is an apology.
An apology I'll never get.
But I'll keep waiting.
Ahhh.
I've come to realize why I'm so frustrated.
And upset.
You gave up something that could have stayed.
That was fine the way it was.
Selfish.
Selfish.
That's what you were.
And I don't understand why...?
I'm a selfish person to begin with but...
Not even I am that selfish.
You ran from me again.
So close you were.
But then you ran.
Further than ever this time.
I just...don't...get you.
Why do you run...?
Were you always this unstable...?
Are you that afraid of connection?
Of commitment?
Of...intimacy...?
Do you really not trust people that much...?
You didn't tell me you went off your meds.
...I don't get that either...
You told me to tell you everything,
and to open up.
...But you won't to me...?
When we were best friends you told me everything...
I knew everything about you...
...Now..I don't know anymore...
...I just. Don't know.
But what pisses me off more than anything,
Is how weak and emo distressed I am.
I hate not being near you.
Like as friends.
Or as lovers.
I hate it.
Its just weird because we're so close.
....Or we were.
Why won't you open up to me like you used to?
Even that little bit was enough..
But now all you do is get high.
That won't solve your problems.
I've tried alcohol.
It doesn't work.
It just ******** you up.
Did you change?
Or have I?
