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Mood: Thinking. Is that even a mood? haha.
Song: Danger: Wildman; The Devil Wears Prada

Second guessing myself is what I do best.

But..This was the best choice...Right...?
I don't know anymore.

I feel like I've hurt you.
And I never wanted that.
Never.

It hurts.
It hurts.
I don't understand why it hurts so bad.
I don't get it.

I hate you.
I hate you.
I hate you for the fact that I love you.

I want to move on.
The words you just kept throwing at me have hurt me.
Enough to make me not trust you.

I drove you out.
I made the choice. This time I can't look back.
I cant I cant I cant.
Or I'll go crazy. And it'll just happen again.

My best friend.
My true friend..
We've had so many good times.
So many..
All our silly conversations.
All our drama.
All our pet names.
Everything.
Its time to let go...

Let out the love.
The friendship.
And let in the bittersweet memories.

I'm gonna go have a good cry.
A good cry.
So maybe I'll be able to freely let go.
Because I know I can't have what I want this time.
I can't have you all to myself.
Not even half.
Not even an inch of you.

I can't have any of you.

I told Kait to watch over you.
Haha..
I'll..Miss you.
And never truly hate you..
That's not possible.

Goodbye my loved one.
Goodbye my Connor.
Goodbye Master.



Goodbye Connor Ashton Rajo.
I'll love you.
But it'll never, ever happen again.
I promise.
This hurt and love.
Ends here.