Mood: I don't know
Song: Opheliac ; Emilie Autumn
I'm your Opheliac
I've been so disillusioned
I know you'd take me back
But still I feign confusion
I couldn't be your friend
My world was to unstable
You might have seen the end
But you were never able
To keep me breathing
As the water rises up again
Whenever I talk to you.
No matter what we talk about.
If its serious or just silly.
Its like its just you and me.
There's no one else to worry about.
No one else around.
Just our separate universe.
That's how its always kind of felt with you.
I don't really know how to describe it.
I want you to answer my questions.
I want you to stop confusing me.
I want you to make up your mind.
I don't want you to be doing anything just for me.
I want you to do this for you.
I need to know that what you said before was a lie.
You know the games I play and the words I say when I want my own way
You know the lies I tell when you've gone through hell and I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be to keep believing in me
I feel tormented by you at times.
Like your presence pushes my heart to the left, but my brain goes to the right.
Torn in two. Rationality tells me what to do. But emotions tell me something totally different.
I tread on eggshells with you, it feels. They usually get crushed beneath my weight and the yolk just seeps between my toes.
Setting in discomfort.
However, other times.
I feel as if I can just lose myself in you.
I can let my guard down - be myself.
And I feel comforted that you can catch me in a lie.
And scold me for lying.
I like how you keep my ego down, so I won't get too full of myself. But at the same time my self esteem won't plummet to the ground.
I'm reading Ophelia.
Her and Hamlet kind of remind me of us.
I don't know why. Haha.
Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt...
I wish you'd just send me some huge explanation. Of us.
Of what I am to you.
What we are- to you.
It'd be so much easier.
Its like you're ten pages ahead in this story.
I miss the days when we told each other everything...
Sometimes I wonder if all I am to you is a Fair Weathered Friend
Keeping me around just when its fun for you.
But I don't think so.
I don't think you'd be like that.
I wish you'd tell me, let me inside to that brain.
So I wouldn't be so uncertain.
So I could defend you so much better.
Song: Opheliac ; Emilie Autumn
I'm your Opheliac
I've been so disillusioned
I know you'd take me back
But still I feign confusion
I couldn't be your friend
My world was to unstable
You might have seen the end
But you were never able
To keep me breathing
As the water rises up again
Whenever I talk to you.
No matter what we talk about.
If its serious or just silly.
Its like its just you and me.
There's no one else to worry about.
No one else around.
Just our separate universe.
That's how its always kind of felt with you.
I don't really know how to describe it.
I want you to answer my questions.
I want you to stop confusing me.
I want you to make up your mind.
I don't want you to be doing anything just for me.
I want you to do this for you.
I need to know that what you said before was a lie.
You know the games I play and the words I say when I want my own way
You know the lies I tell when you've gone through hell and I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be to keep believing in me
I feel tormented by you at times.
Like your presence pushes my heart to the left, but my brain goes to the right.
Torn in two. Rationality tells me what to do. But emotions tell me something totally different.
I tread on eggshells with you, it feels. They usually get crushed beneath my weight and the yolk just seeps between my toes.
Setting in discomfort.
However, other times.
I feel as if I can just lose myself in you.
I can let my guard down - be myself.
And I feel comforted that you can catch me in a lie.
And scold me for lying.
I like how you keep my ego down, so I won't get too full of myself. But at the same time my self esteem won't plummet to the ground.
I'm reading Ophelia.
Her and Hamlet kind of remind me of us.
I don't know why. Haha.
Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt...
I wish you'd just send me some huge explanation. Of us.
Of what I am to you.
What we are- to you.
It'd be so much easier.
Its like you're ten pages ahead in this story.
I miss the days when we told each other everything...
Sometimes I wonder if all I am to you is a Fair Weathered Friend
Keeping me around just when its fun for you.
But I don't think so.
I don't think you'd be like that.
I wish you'd tell me, let me inside to that brain.
So I wouldn't be so uncertain.
So I could defend you so much better.
