Mood: Who knows
Song: A Hero Loses Everyday; Silverstein
Its happening again.
Like the summer I dated Drew.
I lost myself.
Well...No..I just became a stranger to myself. And everyone around me.
Maybe not everyone around me yet...But it'll happen if I don't stop this before it consumes me, again.
I did things I wouldn't normally do.
I said things I normally wouldn't.
I don't even know how to really fully describe it...Haha.
I always had something to look forward to.
Someone to look forward to.
Then I got you.
And lost you.
Got you.
Then lost you.
Now I don't know what I want.
For once, I have no idea what I want from you.
Some days I don't even want to hear from you.
Ever again.
Other days..Well..I just miss talking to you and sharing that connection.
What were we all along?
We kind of felt like lovers? But we let go so easily, what kind of love is that?
We were beyond best friends though.
But how much of a connection should I be willing to admit to with a computer screen?
You could leave. You could die. You could be someone different. You could delete my number. You could forget me altogether.
And I'd never know.
Ever.
I'm so confused.
But I try not to ponder upon it too much.
Sometimes I can't help it.
I just let my mind wander to you.
To the past.
To everything.
I know I want you around.
I know I do.
But then after that...I don't know what I want.
I wonder what you want.
You hardly give me the luxury of worming my way into your mind.
Its either you display it, or shut down.
I kind of want to have a serious discussion with you.
But then again it feels one sided usually.
And I don't think you expect much out of our friendship.
To be honest, I don't really either.
I'm gonna go with the flow though.
Just take careful kitty steps.
And not get stuck in a hole.
Song: A Hero Loses Everyday; Silverstein
Its happening again.
Like the summer I dated Drew.
I lost myself.
Well...No..I just became a stranger to myself. And everyone around me.
Maybe not everyone around me yet...But it'll happen if I don't stop this before it consumes me, again.
I did things I wouldn't normally do.
I said things I normally wouldn't.
I don't even know how to really fully describe it...Haha.
I always had something to look forward to.
Someone to look forward to.
Then I got you.
And lost you.
Got you.
Then lost you.
Now I don't know what I want.
For once, I have no idea what I want from you.
Some days I don't even want to hear from you.
Ever again.
Other days..Well..I just miss talking to you and sharing that connection.
What were we all along?
We kind of felt like lovers? But we let go so easily, what kind of love is that?
We were beyond best friends though.
But how much of a connection should I be willing to admit to with a computer screen?
You could leave. You could die. You could be someone different. You could delete my number. You could forget me altogether.
And I'd never know.
Ever.
I'm so confused.
But I try not to ponder upon it too much.
Sometimes I can't help it.
I just let my mind wander to you.
To the past.
To everything.
I know I want you around.
I know I do.
But then after that...I don't know what I want.
I wonder what you want.
You hardly give me the luxury of worming my way into your mind.
Its either you display it, or shut down.
I kind of want to have a serious discussion with you.
But then again it feels one sided usually.
And I don't think you expect much out of our friendship.
To be honest, I don't really either.
I'm gonna go with the flow though.
Just take careful kitty steps.
And not get stuck in a hole.
