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Mood: Sleepy
Song: Elisabeth; The Sophomore Attempt

So I saw you sneaking through the back door
Heartfelt and I knew you needed something
To hold you over till your ship came in
Bull’s eye now I think it’s something deeper
He paid only just to keep her
Shut up for another day

Shame they broke up. ):
They were actually pretty good.

Anyway...
Reading Lisa's journal made me realize something.
Made the big, ugly, fat truth smack me in the face.
You're just a beautiful lie.
I've always called you my little disenchantment.
But I never thought me, the liar, would fall for a lie itself believing it to be true.

You were something once shinning, something that held a special value.
Now you've become like the rest.
No different than any of the decaying zombies I see at school.
Your shine has dulled.
"You don't even know me haha"
Nope. I don't. I don't even want to begin to try and find out this mess you've become.

I've tried for a long while to fix the unfixable.
It was then that you tried to pull me in.
No, you did pull me in.
The once savior now the victim of your unhappiness, you threw me deep into that cold, dark cage.

You burn.
Burn, Burn, Burn.
Obsessed with the feeling of flames licking at your skin.
Your gentle touch left scorch marks, still I persisted.
I wanted to save you, as you once saved me.
I wanted to be the one you needed, that special someone.
But I what I found was a cage, surrounded by burn.

Its tragic how easily you fall into the burn.
I watch you from the sidelines.
Sadness tugs at me.
She tugs at the other side of me.
I'll eventually follow her.
Someone who doesn't burn me.
Doesn't lock me away.

I always thought you were the intelligent one.
But you're blind, oh so blind.
At what your actions cause.
Where did you go?
What happened to you?
But what is a life that's lived in the past?
How can I move forward if I'm stuck waiting for you?

I don't have time to waste anymore.
I don't have anymore tolerance to your burns.

So you can go on and burn.
Burn in that ******** cage.
Maybe that's where the current you belongs.
You've thrown away something so special within yourself.
You don't deserve to get that back at the pace you're going.
I wonder if he's there.
You just locked him away.
Ahh, but its not my place to wonder or worry.

Your paradise is a facade.
The honey became too sweet, blinding you to the effects.

I haven't talked to you in awhile.
I don't know what to think of it.
I don't know if I really care.
I want to say goodbye, but I keep choking on my words.
I keep trying to be your saint. The one who saves the damned.
All you ever did was slowly pluck out my feathers.
I was the fool's fool for so long.
I wonder if you realize how disgusting you are now.

I can't repair you.
If I could, it would have happened by now.
He's dead.
You're living in his shadow. A beast.
I've opened my eyes.