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yes i have a gloomy view of it. i have tried and have failed. there has only been one person who has broken up with me and not tried to get back together. i cant because i dont have the feeling to keep up a relationship. i dont think its other people, i think it is me and i dont mean that in the sense of luck. but its just me im am afraid that i wont be able to return the feelings that the person has for me and i will hurt more people. i dont like to hurt people...okay i most dont want to hurt people i know. even in the most complecated love stories its still more simple then my life. maybe im over exagerating. and honestly i dont care right now. im thinking about saying screw it and just being single for a long time. life is simpler that way. just not careing about weather a person wants to get together or not just not try to figure people out. just do what im going to do. basicly be selfish. i dont know if i can do that though. i find myself all to often trying to jump from one prince charming role to the next. I might try one more time for a lasting relationship and if it doesnt work witch is the most likely case especialy with my job. always going from one place to the next.