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I have a demon growing in me that only one person can stop. can tame. can save my soul. she does not know it, but she has the power to do all this by simply saying yes. she need only say yes to one question and be truthful to it. she can at least stop the growth of this demon by just the simply giving me a response. i need her more then i believer her to know. i cant do to fate. i may need to defy fate. i have relied on you for many years now and you have yet to steer me astray. i hope i do not, but i must at least tell her. for i am stuck in a time trap repeating my feeling as they dull. in order to escape this trap i must tell her the ways of me to her. if its a no i will at least be able to move on, if its a yes then bliss and heaven shall be. Til that time my pain shall grow into a demon and myself shall slowly grow dull to the fight to stop the demon and to life. it will slowly turn my gray. O' how i wish just to just explain my wys of feeling to her. why the wait. why the pain. why is it this way.