Humans.
People.
Homo sapiens.
I think we were designed to never feel whole.
No, no.
Maybe we were made to lose that feeling.
Because I know I've felt whole.
But always it feels like I drop it.
It falls away like sand.
It takes weeks, months, years to gain back.
Fall out.
Fall back into place.
Takes time.
Wastes time.
And that's our lives spent.
I was happy.
I was feelin great.
On cloud nine.
Then you IM'd me.
Just you.
You don't get it.
You just don't understand anything with me anymore.
Why can't you just accept and move on?
Why do I let you bother me.
I'm so close to finding myself.
But you're blocking the way it feels like.
..No no.
I don't know you're purpose here.
I really don't.
Why don't you just disappear like you said.
Maybe I will forget about you, doubt it though.
I say I forget.
But you're someone I won't forget.
Work that fact into your brain.
Kait gets me so well..
And Lisa..
But I feel like they can't help me on this.
I have to solve this conundrum myself.
...I don't know where to start, though.
Let alone how to start.
I don't even know what I want to say to you.
I feel like I can't be honest anymore.
Lying to you is so much easier.
Because all you've given me lately is your backhand.
That's why you get my rage.
You don't have a ******** filter.
You think you can come up in anywhere, say anything you want.
But one day.
That s**t will get you.
And why the ******** can't I worry.
You were someone I cared about a lot.
I don't give a s**t if I never actually met you.
******** off about that.
You just don't get what I felt for you.
What I feel for Lisa, Kait, and Brittney.
You don't understand that connection.
...And honestly.
That's quite sad.
People.
Homo sapiens.
I think we were designed to never feel whole.
No, no.
Maybe we were made to lose that feeling.
Because I know I've felt whole.
But always it feels like I drop it.
It falls away like sand.
It takes weeks, months, years to gain back.
Fall out.
Fall back into place.
Takes time.
Wastes time.
And that's our lives spent.
I was happy.
I was feelin great.
On cloud nine.
Then you IM'd me.
Just you.
You don't get it.
You just don't understand anything with me anymore.
Why can't you just accept and move on?
Why do I let you bother me.
I'm so close to finding myself.
But you're blocking the way it feels like.
..No no.
I don't know you're purpose here.
I really don't.
Why don't you just disappear like you said.
Maybe I will forget about you, doubt it though.
I say I forget.
But you're someone I won't forget.
Work that fact into your brain.
Kait gets me so well..
And Lisa..
But I feel like they can't help me on this.
I have to solve this conundrum myself.
...I don't know where to start, though.
Let alone how to start.
I don't even know what I want to say to you.
I feel like I can't be honest anymore.
Lying to you is so much easier.
Because all you've given me lately is your backhand.
That's why you get my rage.
You don't have a ******** filter.
You think you can come up in anywhere, say anything you want.
But one day.
That s**t will get you.
And why the ******** can't I worry.
You were someone I cared about a lot.
I don't give a s**t if I never actually met you.
******** off about that.
You just don't get what I felt for you.
What I feel for Lisa, Kait, and Brittney.
You don't understand that connection.
...And honestly.
That's quite sad.
