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******** no i didnt give him your gift.
lol.

but i did let him borrow it and my horns and my chain wallet.
cuz i was bored of all the stuff.
i wouldn't let him have that, ******** no.
he's gonna give it back when he's done and if he doesn't ima kick his a** lolol.

And for once I feel like being completely honest in my journal.
Like sayin stuff that's on my mind and shiiit.

I'm kinda freaking out. Well not really.
But it makes me feel uneasy.
My relationship with Lisa.
Feels so rocky and unstable.
I wonder why she and i can't just forget about what happened and be back to how we were.
Idk.
And I'm scared that she doesn't really understand me?
Does that sound melodramatic? lol.
I wouldn't let Connor just HAVE some gift you worked up to get me. Lol.
I even warned him. I was like "That's from Lisa so...You better not sell it or something."
Kinda getting disappointed in her and myself, because I usually forgive and move on.
But I'm pretty sure she could say the same about me. Haha.

Annnnnd.
My friendship thing with Connor is going greaaat.
Like I feel really comfortable with him again.
Its like...
He's really freaking cute but at the same time I just kinda wanna punch his lights out, you know?!
That warm feeling is coming back and its kinda uhh...
Not really good?
But I know what I'm getting into and I know to step around carefully.
I just wanna live my life and be happy.
Even if I get hurt again. Idgaf.
I like being his friend, even maybe I'll venture out there, his best friend.
He's the same underneath everything...
Same old lazy a**.
Same old guy who doesnt give a shiiit.
Same ole cutie I befriended way back in 06/07.
He's changed a little, though.
I'm worried about the whole weed thing..
But there's not much I can do about it so.

ANYWAY OMG.
POOL POOL POOOOL. I WANNNNNA GO SWIMMINGGG gonk