Bloody Romance; Senses Fail
I feel weird.
Like...You never really expect someone you know to die.
Well I guess I never really knew either of them, but I JUST had a class with Adam. Geez.
&& Now I'm kinda scared.
It just feels so real.
I don't really accept the fact that people die everyday.
Death in general scares the ******** out of me.
I don't really wanna lose anyone..
Ever. lol.
I dunno man.
I just feel all...insecure? Weird? Sad?
Anxious.
Its just like life likes to hit you in the face really hard sometimes..
Maybe its just me.
Since I like to live in my own little world.
Even hours after I keep waiting for someone to say "Just Kidding!"
Nah. Not gonna happen.
Its not really worth thinking about.
But anything involving death fascinates me, in this weird morbid way.
I constantly think about it, trying to figure it out.
Then I get b***h a** scared because I can't.
And I'm going to see Jason tomorrow.
It'll go fine, probably.
Just kinda freaked out.
Everyone keeps giving me s**t because of why I said what I did to him.
My reasoning.
Its not really fair to me haha.
There's something I really want to say to you.
But I don't feel like its time.
Well...I just.
Don't know.
If I should.
I feel weird.
Like...You never really expect someone you know to die.
Well I guess I never really knew either of them, but I JUST had a class with Adam. Geez.
&& Now I'm kinda scared.
It just feels so real.
I don't really accept the fact that people die everyday.
Death in general scares the ******** out of me.
I don't really wanna lose anyone..
Ever. lol.
I dunno man.
I just feel all...insecure? Weird? Sad?
Anxious.
Its just like life likes to hit you in the face really hard sometimes..
Maybe its just me.
Since I like to live in my own little world.
Even hours after I keep waiting for someone to say "Just Kidding!"
Nah. Not gonna happen.
Its not really worth thinking about.
But anything involving death fascinates me, in this weird morbid way.
I constantly think about it, trying to figure it out.
Then I get b***h a** scared because I can't.
And I'm going to see Jason tomorrow.
It'll go fine, probably.
Just kinda freaked out.
Everyone keeps giving me s**t because of why I said what I did to him.
My reasoning.
Its not really fair to me haha.
There's something I really want to say to you.
But I don't feel like its time.
Well...I just.
Don't know.
If I should.
