Mood: still scared
Song: All Again for You
I've never been so scared in my life before.
When I read the message, it took me like...20 times to process it.
"Connor went to the hospital? Nah. Why you joke like that. That's not funny at all."
It wasn't a joke though.
And I finally realized it.
The truth smacked and reality stung.
I remember exactly how I felt. All I could hear was my heart thumping in my chest, I forgot how to breathe, and I couldn't see because I started crying.
By that time I didn't know if he was okay or not.
I got so ******** paranoid. A life without him is meaningless.
Even thinking about it just...Hurts so much I feel like I can't breathe.
He's my light.
He's my...Everything.
He means everything to me. Without him I'm nothing.
Grr I was so scared.
I was ready to just like drop everything I was doing to sprint down there.
Omggg.
I don't think he knows just how worried I was! ): <
God I had a panic attack when he picked up the phone.
I was close to tears but then my family kinda ruined it. Lol
"LET ME TALK TO HIM"
; __________ ;
So worried holy crap.
Okay my nerves are shot for about a month. Or a year.
When I logged on and saw he changed my avi I was like
"..Dawe that connur coo. he's so cute. ;w ; "
Dude I need to go to sleep early tonight.
BUT NOT BEFORE I HAVE A TALK WITH CONNOR ): <<<
I knew the day would come where something bad would happen and I wouldn't be there to do anything! SEFDFESEF. I can't handle anymore stress or worrying for another year. Fasho.
I really wanna know what caused it though. ;w ;
It better not be drugs. <<
...< < ;
I'm fine with weed but I don't want him to do anything else ; ____________ ;
I love him too much ; w ;
Song: All Again for You
I've never been so scared in my life before.
When I read the message, it took me like...20 times to process it.
"Connor went to the hospital? Nah. Why you joke like that. That's not funny at all."
It wasn't a joke though.
And I finally realized it.
The truth smacked and reality stung.
I remember exactly how I felt. All I could hear was my heart thumping in my chest, I forgot how to breathe, and I couldn't see because I started crying.
By that time I didn't know if he was okay or not.
I got so ******** paranoid. A life without him is meaningless.
Even thinking about it just...Hurts so much I feel like I can't breathe.
He's my light.
He's my...Everything.
He means everything to me. Without him I'm nothing.
Grr I was so scared.
I was ready to just like drop everything I was doing to sprint down there.
Omggg.
I don't think he knows just how worried I was! ): <
God I had a panic attack when he picked up the phone.
I was close to tears but then my family kinda ruined it. Lol
"LET ME TALK TO HIM"
; __________ ;
So worried holy crap.
Okay my nerves are shot for about a month. Or a year.
When I logged on and saw he changed my avi I was like
"..Dawe that connur coo. he's so cute. ;w ; "
Dude I need to go to sleep early tonight.
BUT NOT BEFORE I HAVE A TALK WITH CONNOR ): <<<
I knew the day would come where something bad would happen and I wouldn't be there to do anything! SEFDFESEF. I can't handle anymore stress or worrying for another year. Fasho.
I really wanna know what caused it though. ;w ;
It better not be drugs. <<
...< < ;
I'm fine with weed but I don't want him to do anything else ; ____________ ;
I love him too much ; w ;
