Mood: Okay I guess
Song: Dog Days; Florence + The Machine
The days are getting to be annoying.
I'm just so tired of going to school.
Tired of all these people.
I miss Connor.
I wanted a drink last night super bad. ;l
Like I just got up and looked around for alcohol.
All we had was gross s**t so I was like "******** that I'm not drinking that s**t."
I'm just always so bored.
I miss the summer ):
When I was always doing something.
Especially when it was with Connor.
Bethany is always like "drugs drugs drugssss."
And I'm just like "oh sweet god shut up. i only let connor rant to me about drugs. );<"
At least tomorrow is early release. Thank god.
Another week gonnnne.
In AP we talked about some deep stuff yo.
She was like "Haven't any of you woken up and just rolled over and been like 'Is this really all there is?'"
A lot of kids said no. xDD
I was like "uh I have. );"
That's how I used to be at least.
I hated life. Legit. Everyday it was the same boring thing.
I've gotten a little bit better though.
I think its because of Connor?
We always talk about something different usually.
Then she was like "if you dont push yourself to do something than your life is just kinda gonna suck"
I think I don't really have that many aspirations in my life.
I used to want to be some amazing novelist or artist. The big bucks.
But now I just wanna lead a mediocre life. Go to college in New Orleans, live with Connor, get a job, and have a family.
That's all really haha.
Its the simple things that please me now.
I don't ask or need much anymore.
All I really want anymore is company.
Such a simple thing.
The company of people I love.
I'm tired of all this bullshit called drama. ;l
LOVE LIFE YEAHHHH.
Wow I really am becoming a hippie haha.
I don't even like attack people much anymore.
I WOULD SAY IM CHILL BUT LATELY ITS BEEN EMOTION AFTER EMOTION.
Goddamnit I wish I'd have my period! ): <
******** birth control, ******** up my period!
Yeah Connor you better love and appreciate me. ;l
I feel so useless sometimes.
Cuz I can't be there and like....Be his nurse );<
And I can't hold him in my arms and tell him its okay
Grr. ):
I hate living so far away.
Its almost been three months since I saw him.
And it feels like its only been like..s**t...3 weeks?
Not very long.
Its makes me a very depressed person that I'm not there with my boo.
I was thinking about just applying to college down there.
Just bam!
And then I'd have to go job hunting.
But first scolarshipppps!
Ima jew the ******** out of that s**t.
Song: Dog Days; Florence + The Machine
The days are getting to be annoying.
I'm just so tired of going to school.
Tired of all these people.
I miss Connor.
I wanted a drink last night super bad. ;l
Like I just got up and looked around for alcohol.
All we had was gross s**t so I was like "******** that I'm not drinking that s**t."
I'm just always so bored.
I miss the summer ):
When I was always doing something.
Especially when it was with Connor.
Bethany is always like "drugs drugs drugssss."
And I'm just like "oh sweet god shut up. i only let connor rant to me about drugs. );<"
At least tomorrow is early release. Thank god.
Another week gonnnne.
In AP we talked about some deep stuff yo.
She was like "Haven't any of you woken up and just rolled over and been like 'Is this really all there is?'"
A lot of kids said no. xDD
I was like "uh I have. );"
That's how I used to be at least.
I hated life. Legit. Everyday it was the same boring thing.
I've gotten a little bit better though.
I think its because of Connor?
We always talk about something different usually.
Then she was like "if you dont push yourself to do something than your life is just kinda gonna suck"
I think I don't really have that many aspirations in my life.
I used to want to be some amazing novelist or artist. The big bucks.
But now I just wanna lead a mediocre life. Go to college in New Orleans, live with Connor, get a job, and have a family.
That's all really haha.
Its the simple things that please me now.
I don't ask or need much anymore.
All I really want anymore is company.
Such a simple thing.
The company of people I love.
I'm tired of all this bullshit called drama. ;l
LOVE LIFE YEAHHHH.
Wow I really am becoming a hippie haha.
I don't even like attack people much anymore.
I WOULD SAY IM CHILL BUT LATELY ITS BEEN EMOTION AFTER EMOTION.
Goddamnit I wish I'd have my period! ): <
******** birth control, ******** up my period!
Yeah Connor you better love and appreciate me. ;l
I feel so useless sometimes.
Cuz I can't be there and like....Be his nurse );<
And I can't hold him in my arms and tell him its okay
Grr. ):
I hate living so far away.
Its almost been three months since I saw him.
And it feels like its only been like..s**t...3 weeks?
Not very long.
Its makes me a very depressed person that I'm not there with my boo.
I was thinking about just applying to college down there.
Just bam!
And then I'd have to go job hunting.
But first scolarshipppps!
Ima jew the ******** out of that s**t.
