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For those who say that medication is the way to treat depression, think about this…

When you’re feeling down and thinks nobody cares, do you want somebody to just give you a quick-fix solution? Or do you want somebody to talk to, who will listen without judgement and stand beside you?

I know that when I was in a state of depression, I didn’t express how I felt because there was nobody I felt I COULD explain anything to. Everybody I knew would either judge me, try to give me solutions, or throw scripture in my face that I already know (and keep in mind, I’m involved in church ministry). Even now, that stuff is annoying. I mean, come on. Doesn’t it say in James, “If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food, and one of you says to them, ‘Depart in peace, be warmed and filled,’ but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does it profit?” Just giving encouraging words and Bible verses is empty when you’ve lost all hope. These things just don’t have meaning.

No, I didn’t want quick fixes. I didn’t want just words of encouragement. I didn’t want judgment. I didn’t want people who say they understand. How could they understand? It’s MY life. They don’t know me. They don’t know what I’m thinking. They think they’re helping, but they’re not! All these things made me want to SCREAM.

What I wanted was somebody who would LISTEN to me. Who I could explain those things in my life that I’ve been hiding from everybody else to. Somebody I could count on to not just give me words and say things, but somebody who I could talk to and even have them play an active role in my life in helping me change my life. Somebody who would sincerely care and would love me unconditionally, in spite of what I’m doing. I didn't want pity; I wanted love.

Now that I’ve been through that, I want to be that ear to others. Even though I don’t understand what you’re going through, I know what you need- somebody to care.

If anybody ever feels a need to talk about something, especially something they may feel uncomfortable with to others, my message box is always open. Anything you share with me will not be shared with others.

I want to be a psychologist for this reason. This is the calling on my life. Screw the medication.