Mood: Okay
Song: Syringe; Emilie Autumn
I remember a long time ago I scolded someone for being 'too honest'
I believed that being super honest to the point of hurting your friend's feelings was a bad thing.
But now I'm wondering if it really is.
I'd rather someone be brutally honest with me, than let me find out later - getting hurt more in a sense.
Honest is a virtue, as they say.
Perhaps being honest, completely, with someone is the fullest form of respect and friendship.
Being honest isn't hurtful...Its good in a way?
I used to think lying was better, not to let them get hurt.
But does that really make me a good friend? Not really.
I've always been careful not to step on people's toes. But in a sense that makes me distant from them, not really a true friend.
There is no such thing as a white lie.
I suppose that's what I've always admired about you.
You're straight up and honest.
Because of you, really, I've stopped lying.
I'm becoming completely honest and blunt.
I think I've hurt a few people though - with my cutting words.
Like Brittney for example.
But I feel like I'd rather be completely honest with her than to be pissed off, brooding without her knowing.
And she really did hurt me.
Its another Beth incident.
Boyfriend > Paige.
I can understand that its your boyfriend and stuff, believe me.
But there comes a point where its just annoying.
I felt like she abandoned me in a way, which is my biggest fear.
I'm always afraid people are just going to get up and leave.
For some reason getting closer to Connor scares me.
I want to, but at the same time I'm scared.
I'm afraid I'll read too much into our relationship and become clingy, when in reality, I'm just a friend. That's all.
I feel insecure about him when I'm not actually talking to him.
I don't know how that works but...That's how I feel?
I'm tired of people asking if we're back together because I know we're not but it feels like we are.
Noisy people, geez.
I don't knoooow.
I don't know what to do with Connor other than just let things precede as is.
But the only time I talk to him is at night. When I'm half awake haha.
WHICH IS AWESOME BELIEVE ME. I just wish he'd get on msn or something ): <
-SIIIIGH-
People people people.
I love my friends.
But sometimes I wish I was just by myself haha.
Song: Syringe; Emilie Autumn
I remember a long time ago I scolded someone for being 'too honest'
I believed that being super honest to the point of hurting your friend's feelings was a bad thing.
But now I'm wondering if it really is.
I'd rather someone be brutally honest with me, than let me find out later - getting hurt more in a sense.
Honest is a virtue, as they say.
Perhaps being honest, completely, with someone is the fullest form of respect and friendship.
Being honest isn't hurtful...Its good in a way?
I used to think lying was better, not to let them get hurt.
But does that really make me a good friend? Not really.
I've always been careful not to step on people's toes. But in a sense that makes me distant from them, not really a true friend.
There is no such thing as a white lie.
I suppose that's what I've always admired about you.
You're straight up and honest.
Because of you, really, I've stopped lying.
I'm becoming completely honest and blunt.
I think I've hurt a few people though - with my cutting words.
Like Brittney for example.
But I feel like I'd rather be completely honest with her than to be pissed off, brooding without her knowing.
And she really did hurt me.
Its another Beth incident.
Boyfriend > Paige.
I can understand that its your boyfriend and stuff, believe me.
But there comes a point where its just annoying.
I felt like she abandoned me in a way, which is my biggest fear.
I'm always afraid people are just going to get up and leave.
For some reason getting closer to Connor scares me.
I want to, but at the same time I'm scared.
I'm afraid I'll read too much into our relationship and become clingy, when in reality, I'm just a friend. That's all.
I feel insecure about him when I'm not actually talking to him.
I don't know how that works but...That's how I feel?
I'm tired of people asking if we're back together because I know we're not but it feels like we are.
Noisy people, geez.
I don't knoooow.
I don't know what to do with Connor other than just let things precede as is.
But the only time I talk to him is at night. When I'm half awake haha.
WHICH IS AWESOME BELIEVE ME. I just wish he'd get on msn or something ): <
-SIIIIGH-
People people people.
I love my friends.
But sometimes I wish I was just by myself haha.
