Mood: Sleepy
Song: Enter the Ninja; Die Antwoord
I don't know who I'm writing to anymore with this journal.
Connor's never online anymore.
And Brittney's hardly on. Haha.
And most of these journals pertain to them.
I just feel like writing.
I just feel like saying it.
What's on my mind at least.
Sometimes I feel like I over analyze you, but other times I feel like its just so up close and clear in my face that I need to realize it.
I was talking to Yamz yesterday, about you, haha we usually always talk about you. P:
Anyway.
I said something to him that had been on my mind, but I never have ever said it before.
"I've known Connor for so long but sometimes he just feels like a stranger to me."
Its true. In a sense.
You never really talk about yourself.
Or how you feel or your past or just really anything.
I hardly know that much about you, I used to know even less until I visited you.
I worry about you sometimes. Most of the time.
I mean...I know you have lots of friends, trust me.
But its like you're not really that close to any of them. Like best friend close.
I know you are with Yamato and me. But no one else.
That's just my opinion though, I don't know for sure.
I wonder if you're lonely.
I'm beginning to be curious.
You just seem...I don't know. Weird.
I asked you if you wanted me to come visit and you were like "I dont know."
I wonder if that's because you don't want to complicate things between us anymore than things already are.
For some reason most of the people I talk to think we're still dating, even though I told them we broke up. Ha.
People say that I spoil you and do too much for you.
Possibly.
But I just...Feel like I want to do it.
If I want to take care of you then why is it such a big deal?
I'm just worried.
That behind that hippie is a sad Connur.
Just the impression I get.
I shouldn't be dissecting you.
Brittney still hasn't come to me. Haha.
Its not so much that it irks me, but it just upsets me.
There's nothing I can do though.
I said what I said for a reason.
I'm not taking it back.
I miss both of my best friends' company.
Connor and Paigey time.
And Brittney and Paigey time.
I miss Voodoo fest.
I miss being around Connor.
I just miss so much.
Life is so boring right now.
Its not like its shitty.
Just ******** boring.
There's nothing interesting to look forward to anymore.
College is just in site and its just like "Oh okay whatever."
Whatever I don't know why I spit all this out on my journal anymore.
I just kinda wrote in it for Connor.
I guess this little thing does come in handy when I just wanna spill my guts.
Because I feel like I shouldn't say these words unless I'm face to face with you.
And in a way I'm scared.
Song: Enter the Ninja; Die Antwoord
I don't know who I'm writing to anymore with this journal.
Connor's never online anymore.
And Brittney's hardly on. Haha.
And most of these journals pertain to them.
I just feel like writing.
I just feel like saying it.
What's on my mind at least.
Sometimes I feel like I over analyze you, but other times I feel like its just so up close and clear in my face that I need to realize it.
I was talking to Yamz yesterday, about you, haha we usually always talk about you. P:
Anyway.
I said something to him that had been on my mind, but I never have ever said it before.
"I've known Connor for so long but sometimes he just feels like a stranger to me."
Its true. In a sense.
You never really talk about yourself.
Or how you feel or your past or just really anything.
I hardly know that much about you, I used to know even less until I visited you.
I worry about you sometimes. Most of the time.
I mean...I know you have lots of friends, trust me.
But its like you're not really that close to any of them. Like best friend close.
I know you are with Yamato and me. But no one else.
That's just my opinion though, I don't know for sure.
I wonder if you're lonely.
I'm beginning to be curious.
You just seem...I don't know. Weird.
I asked you if you wanted me to come visit and you were like "I dont know."
I wonder if that's because you don't want to complicate things between us anymore than things already are.
For some reason most of the people I talk to think we're still dating, even though I told them we broke up. Ha.
People say that I spoil you and do too much for you.
Possibly.
But I just...Feel like I want to do it.
If I want to take care of you then why is it such a big deal?
I'm just worried.
That behind that hippie is a sad Connur.
Just the impression I get.
I shouldn't be dissecting you.
Brittney still hasn't come to me. Haha.
Its not so much that it irks me, but it just upsets me.
There's nothing I can do though.
I said what I said for a reason.
I'm not taking it back.
I miss both of my best friends' company.
Connor and Paigey time.
And Brittney and Paigey time.
I miss Voodoo fest.
I miss being around Connor.
I just miss so much.
Life is so boring right now.
Its not like its shitty.
Just ******** boring.
There's nothing interesting to look forward to anymore.
College is just in site and its just like "Oh okay whatever."
Whatever I don't know why I spit all this out on my journal anymore.
I just kinda wrote in it for Connor.
I guess this little thing does come in handy when I just wanna spill my guts.
Because I feel like I shouldn't say these words unless I'm face to face with you.
And in a way I'm scared.
