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That I could pour my heart out to my journal.
But my words feel empty and weightless.
I need to let go.
Its a lot easier than I expected.
Just every so often I catch myself thinking about him.
I just become blind and refused to give anyone else a chance.
I was foolish.
I shouldn't have been so close to someone not here.

Now I'm scared to move along.
I don't want to compare everyone to him.
I don't want to hurt anyone.
And I'm just plain tired of being in love honestly.
Its just so much work and its either a win or a lose.

I sorta kinda like Ryan.
I'm kinda worried because he has a simliar situation that I had with Connor with this other chick.
Except she's a biiiiitch!
You never really get over your first love so.. Maybe my worries are just being over exaggerated.

I just don't get why I got ignored.
Not that BIG of a deal but it bothers me.
Whatever not my problem anymore.

Ugh I haven't really talked to anyone about anything lately.
I feel so bothersome haha.
So I just keep to myself.

The world is becoming real fast.
I need to get my s**t together and get over all my teenage dramazzzzz.
Collllegeeeeeeeee.
Yum.