Mood: Okay
Song: D.A.N.C.E. - Justice
Where to begin?
First of all I feel a fool.
Sad I'm realizing everything now, when its too late.
I wonder if you ever even cared about me at all?
I'd like to think you did because you kept coming back.
Now I wonder though.
I wonder if you being so scared of being alone drives you to just...Be with someone?
Anyone.
But then its too much trouble for you to keep up a relationship so...Its like you either ditch them and come back, or just keep your distance. Friends with benefits to be blunt.
I wasted so much effort on you.
I gave up time being with my friends, time being with my family, and I gave up relationships I had with people for you.
I became someone else.
No, its just that...I hadn't loved anyone as much as I loved you in a long long time
I thought you were REAL.
So I made sacrifices for you.
Did you make any for me? No.
But I didn't realize it at the time.
I put up with SO much s**t from you.
I put up with your super late night calls.
I put up with you being a dickhead, with your weird sense of humor.
I put up with being ignored for days on end. It was always, I'll come back to Paige when I feel like it.
I put up with you living in the moment of the party, which GOD knows what you did at them.
I put up with you cheating on me that one time. I chose to ignore that hickey you had on your neck, that most definitely did not come from me.
And the worst thing that I put up with: weed > Paige.
And now I accepted all that s**t because I loved you.
I accepted our breakup and chose to move along.
You wanted to be friends with benefits and when I couldn't honestly give you that because I lived so far away, you ignored me.
Then Kait tells me about you having a new investment in a girl.
I was fine with that, I figured it was someone who lived there. Someone who could actually give you your needs.
But no. It was someone who lives even further away from you than I do.
You even dare to do the same crap to her.
"When I'm a burnout will you take care of me?" "I really want to stop smoking weed..." "I wanna go back to Lusher" Is that what you do? Spin your sad sad tale and get us to sympathize?
I don't have sympathy for you.
I feel like you're almost pathetic in a way.
You want someone. But anyone you get won't be good enough.
You're scared for reasons I don't even know. Or maybe you just don't want to deal with all that trouble.
But let me tell you one thing.
It was never you forgiving me and taking me back.
It was ME forgiving YOU.
Almost every time we broke up it was YOUR fault.
You were a ******** dickhead. Maybe once it was my fault but for the most part I did nothing but love you.
And if you even DARE to do that to Kait, holy ******** s**t.
I hope then you live your life in misery, I honestly do.
Because she does not need ANY of the s**t.
And yeah you're becoming a burn out.
And yeah you probably will turn out like your dad.
You won't change anything unless YOU want to.
I don't think you can. Weed is your escape.
I never told you that I almost was an alcoholic. Its so hard to give up something that helps you deal with s**t.
I don't think you have the will power to do it.
Look at how many times in the past you've wanted to.
And you still haven't.
I don't know what the ******** your problem is.
But you need to fix it.
I think you're a good person deep deep down.
But you always just...I don't even know!
You need to grow up, that's for sure.
You have a LOT of growing up to do, and I'm afraid its going to smack you in the face one day.
God I wish you could read this.
Don't you even do what you did to me to Kait.
She's already been through Eric.
But if you're honestly into Kait and you're willing to actually put forth the effort of having a long distance relationship, then go ahead.
You'll be a hypocrite in my eyes, but hey if you're happy so what?
A hypocrite why you ask?
Because you broke up with ME due to the distance.
But then you date a girl further away from you? Hm.
Fishy.
After all this crap happened I apologized to Lisa.
I was such a ******** b***h to her.
she didn't deserve what I dished out to her.
And I'm well aware she'll never trust me again. A shame because we could have been great friends.
But nope, I became so deep into my sorrow with the whole issue with you that I became this ranting, self pitying a*****e.
It took Kait being frank with me to wake me the hell up.
Thank god someone had the balls.
I don't blame Kait for anything, oddly.
I don't feel like its her fault.
Maybe I am a little mad because she knows what I went through.
But he's a like able person. Almost too sweet.
Michelle did the same thing, more bitchy though.
So I'm a little bit sour about it, but not as much as I was with Michelle.
Who straight up was like "Sooooooo....I can date him now?" b***h.
Anyway.
Congrats.
I was going to try and become your friend again, but you kinda went and ******** that up.
Good job.
Song: D.A.N.C.E. - Justice
Where to begin?
First of all I feel a fool.
Sad I'm realizing everything now, when its too late.
I wonder if you ever even cared about me at all?
I'd like to think you did because you kept coming back.
Now I wonder though.
I wonder if you being so scared of being alone drives you to just...Be with someone?
Anyone.
But then its too much trouble for you to keep up a relationship so...Its like you either ditch them and come back, or just keep your distance. Friends with benefits to be blunt.
I wasted so much effort on you.
I gave up time being with my friends, time being with my family, and I gave up relationships I had with people for you.
I became someone else.
No, its just that...I hadn't loved anyone as much as I loved you in a long long time
I thought you were REAL.
So I made sacrifices for you.
Did you make any for me? No.
But I didn't realize it at the time.
I put up with SO much s**t from you.
I put up with your super late night calls.
I put up with you being a dickhead, with your weird sense of humor.
I put up with being ignored for days on end. It was always, I'll come back to Paige when I feel like it.
I put up with you living in the moment of the party, which GOD knows what you did at them.
I put up with you cheating on me that one time. I chose to ignore that hickey you had on your neck, that most definitely did not come from me.
And the worst thing that I put up with: weed > Paige.
And now I accepted all that s**t because I loved you.
I accepted our breakup and chose to move along.
You wanted to be friends with benefits and when I couldn't honestly give you that because I lived so far away, you ignored me.
Then Kait tells me about you having a new investment in a girl.
I was fine with that, I figured it was someone who lived there. Someone who could actually give you your needs.
But no. It was someone who lives even further away from you than I do.
You even dare to do the same crap to her.
"When I'm a burnout will you take care of me?" "I really want to stop smoking weed..." "I wanna go back to Lusher" Is that what you do? Spin your sad sad tale and get us to sympathize?
I don't have sympathy for you.
I feel like you're almost pathetic in a way.
You want someone. But anyone you get won't be good enough.
You're scared for reasons I don't even know. Or maybe you just don't want to deal with all that trouble.
But let me tell you one thing.
It was never you forgiving me and taking me back.
It was ME forgiving YOU.
Almost every time we broke up it was YOUR fault.
You were a ******** dickhead. Maybe once it was my fault but for the most part I did nothing but love you.
And if you even DARE to do that to Kait, holy ******** s**t.
I hope then you live your life in misery, I honestly do.
Because she does not need ANY of the s**t.
And yeah you're becoming a burn out.
And yeah you probably will turn out like your dad.
You won't change anything unless YOU want to.
I don't think you can. Weed is your escape.
I never told you that I almost was an alcoholic. Its so hard to give up something that helps you deal with s**t.
I don't think you have the will power to do it.
Look at how many times in the past you've wanted to.
And you still haven't.
I don't know what the ******** your problem is.
But you need to fix it.
I think you're a good person deep deep down.
But you always just...I don't even know!
You need to grow up, that's for sure.
You have a LOT of growing up to do, and I'm afraid its going to smack you in the face one day.
God I wish you could read this.
Don't you even do what you did to me to Kait.
She's already been through Eric.
But if you're honestly into Kait and you're willing to actually put forth the effort of having a long distance relationship, then go ahead.
You'll be a hypocrite in my eyes, but hey if you're happy so what?
A hypocrite why you ask?
Because you broke up with ME due to the distance.
But then you date a girl further away from you? Hm.
Fishy.
After all this crap happened I apologized to Lisa.
I was such a ******** b***h to her.
she didn't deserve what I dished out to her.
And I'm well aware she'll never trust me again. A shame because we could have been great friends.
But nope, I became so deep into my sorrow with the whole issue with you that I became this ranting, self pitying a*****e.
It took Kait being frank with me to wake me the hell up.
Thank god someone had the balls.
I don't blame Kait for anything, oddly.
I don't feel like its her fault.
Maybe I am a little mad because she knows what I went through.
But he's a like able person. Almost too sweet.
Michelle did the same thing, more bitchy though.
So I'm a little bit sour about it, but not as much as I was with Michelle.
Who straight up was like "Sooooooo....I can date him now?" b***h.
Anyway.
Congrats.
I was going to try and become your friend again, but you kinda went and ******** that up.
Good job.
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