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Lately I've been super depressed.
And I've been thinking about death haha.
Honestly though death scares the everliving crap out of me.

I'm not like those...Religious people.
That believe in an afterlife.
That almost seems too..Great for us.
For people who hurt others on a daily basis.
They believe they can repent by going to church. Feh like God can change something you've done.

We're all just reaching for some form of salvation.
Not me.
I make amends on my own time, I don't need God to make me feel better about who I am.

But still.
Death.
What is after death?
Darkness?
Nothingness?
That scares me so badly.

I feel closer to Kait.
I feel kinda protective of her?
I wish Bri lived there or that she lived with Bri.
Hell I wish we all just lived together haha.
But there'd still be drama and sleepless nights.

I feel bad that I missed her call.
but I was ******** up and left my phone in the car because I didnt want to lose it at the concert.

Life just likes to keep shitting on us I suppose haha.
I've just been trying really hard to make the best out of what I have.
This is usually how my life goes.
I have a really good year.
Then the next year is mostly shitty haha. P:

Kait kinda offended me when she said she had to be paranoid of me.
I was just like "...What did I do wrong? Why can't you trust me? We're buddies...):"
But I kinda think I understand.
I know she needs everyone she can get that truly loves her.

There's a s**t ton of wolves in sheep's clothing out there.
You never know when you'll get bitten.