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This just started.
I don't even know where it came from.
But I'm scared everyone I talk to is going to be fake..?

Like..
My friends aren't real..?
That they're going to just up and leave.
Or that they're pretending and when I turn my back they talk bad about me.
"Paige is so annoying"
"Oh god I don't wanna talk to her, shes so clingy"

I have no idea where this paranoia is coming from.
Its completely irrational.
But I can't help it...?

This makes me even clingy-er.
Haha.
But at the same time I'm kinda keeping it hush hush.
I want to tell Brittney and ect.
But there's nothing she or anyone can really do.

And eventually I'll just push them so far that they won't WANT to come back.
Or I'll get so clingy and always having them prove their care for me that they'll get fed up.

This is so annoying.
I miss ________________ .
And I hate that I miss ______________ .
And I hate that I like ________. At the same time I like that I like ___________ .

So frustrating.
Because I can't just come out and say " ___ I like you!"
It'll ruin everything.
And ___ would probably be like "Uhhhhhhhhhh....I can't"

Haha.
Oh life.