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I've thought about it
And I was not even trying to make you the bad guy.

I'm just so tired of being there for you: A GOOD FRIEND.
And then you just not being there for me.
I'm well aware that I don't have to talk to you.
But last time I didn't you freaked out.

I don't need you as much as you think.
It does hurt.
But I will live on.

You need to make some major changes.
You need to grow up too.
You're so selfish.
Its no wonder you feel so lonely.
Maybe if you gave a little.

You know this was all actually a test to see if you'd care enough.
If you'd be like "Oh wow I didn't realize what I was doing."
It was to see if you'd keep me as a friend and actually try.
But you failed.
You just tossed me aside.

Again.
I usually never portray people as the 'bad' person.
Unless they're DOING something WRONG.
I'm sorry if you don't want to change.
But you really need to.

I've gone through so much with you.
And perhaps all along I just wanted to fix you. Well not fix but be there because I knew how alone you felt.
But this last year...Just god...You've changed.
I don't know what the ******** crawled up your a** after we broke up and s**t.

But jesus.
I'm sorry.
I feel so sorry for you.
If you ever read this it may piss you off.
But I'm sorry....I just.
Hope for the best.
Haha.
Don't come back this time.
It's better that way.