Dear Lisa,
It really means a lot that you said that..I was wondering if you'd ever forgive me honestly..haha. Because yeah I know you hold grudges. I knew that you'd take a long, long time to even speak to me again. But I knew you were worth that effort so I never gave up. I miss our friendship a lot sometimes. A lot of times... And when I remember why we weren't friends it makes me wanna barf because its so ******** stupid. Do you still read my journals? They're stupid. I'd talk to you about things..But lately I'm scared of my own thoughts so I'm trying to keep them away. I love you. And Ima text you more often <3
So Brittney and I are friends again.
I don't really trust her still.
But I felt like it was all unsettled and stupid.
It doesn't ******** matter if her boyfriend's a tool, I'll let her deal with it.
this time if he's a c**k to her, she's on her own.
My mouth is shut.
That's probably the fairest thing I could do, since whenever I do defend her it just seems like I'm going out of my way to attack Kyle.
And connor.
Where do I start.
Things are opening up to me, that I wish I couldn't see.
You're selfish.
So yeah you play video games all night and expect me to realize this and deal with it, but you know the pain from that adds up.
I get tired of that.
Self esteem check? Oh my boyfriend loves video games more than me.
Oh my boyfriend says he's too scared to come up here. How do you expect us to develop more of a relationship then?
And then when you said me ignoring you like you ignore me wouldn't hurt you as bad as I thought...For some reason that really hit home.
Guess you don't really even need me do you?
I'm making a scene out of everything?
Well maybe you should wake up and realize that you're in the fault sometimes.
And incredibly selfish.
My life feels so...completely...Stagnant.
Like a pond in a forest, completely still - no ripples or animals.
I always say I'm going to get up and do something different, be chaotic in this mundane life..But then I just fade back into the background.
I'll just keep floating through life slowly becoming a ghost.
PS I hope everything works out between Kait and Bri <3 I know she's been stressin. And it'd make her life even more complete with Bri back in it
It really means a lot that you said that..I was wondering if you'd ever forgive me honestly..haha. Because yeah I know you hold grudges. I knew that you'd take a long, long time to even speak to me again. But I knew you were worth that effort so I never gave up. I miss our friendship a lot sometimes. A lot of times... And when I remember why we weren't friends it makes me wanna barf because its so ******** stupid. Do you still read my journals? They're stupid. I'd talk to you about things..But lately I'm scared of my own thoughts so I'm trying to keep them away. I love you. And Ima text you more often <3
So Brittney and I are friends again.
I don't really trust her still.
But I felt like it was all unsettled and stupid.
It doesn't ******** matter if her boyfriend's a tool, I'll let her deal with it.
this time if he's a c**k to her, she's on her own.
My mouth is shut.
That's probably the fairest thing I could do, since whenever I do defend her it just seems like I'm going out of my way to attack Kyle.
And connor.
Where do I start.
Things are opening up to me, that I wish I couldn't see.
You're selfish.
So yeah you play video games all night and expect me to realize this and deal with it, but you know the pain from that adds up.
I get tired of that.
Self esteem check? Oh my boyfriend loves video games more than me.
Oh my boyfriend says he's too scared to come up here. How do you expect us to develop more of a relationship then?
And then when you said me ignoring you like you ignore me wouldn't hurt you as bad as I thought...For some reason that really hit home.
Guess you don't really even need me do you?
I'm making a scene out of everything?
Well maybe you should wake up and realize that you're in the fault sometimes.
And incredibly selfish.
My life feels so...completely...Stagnant.
Like a pond in a forest, completely still - no ripples or animals.
I always say I'm going to get up and do something different, be chaotic in this mundane life..But then I just fade back into the background.
I'll just keep floating through life slowly becoming a ghost.
PS I hope everything works out between Kait and Bri <3 I know she's been stressin. And it'd make her life even more complete with Bri back in it
