It's funny going through all these journals. Strange too. Funny what was so important just a few years ago I couldn't give a rat's a** about now razz
A lot has changed. I'd like to think I've changed too. I know that's a lie though. I'm still Kira. I'm still the girl lurking ecritters and Gaia for good RP's, still watching really pretty anime, still struggling to make my life ideal, still reaching out to people for smiles and giggles, still just doing Kira things.
I still have the sense of humor of a 5 year old, giggling at the words fart and booger.
I still think dogs are way better than cats. I still am awkward as hell when I don't remind myself to quit worrying about it.
A lot has changed around me but I am the same and you'd think that were a bad thing but it's comforting. I was so worried two years ago that I was changing, I was becoming bitter and self loathing and that I was becoming a b***h (and to be honest I can be but I don't think anyone is perfect) I was worried I wasn't Kira anymore... but whether it was just a strange mindset or a phase, it seems to have been erased. I'm happy. And although I'll be looking over my shoulder every 5 minutes to make sure Karma doesn't stab my spine, I'm going to walk tall and be happy that I'm given the chance I'm getting. Things could be so much worse and right now... Well, I feel like I'm turning into those annoying freaks who are so happy all the time and flaunting it but I am honestly so. I'm single, in an apt, in a great school, in a fantastic program, in a wonderful mind set, with great friends, and wonderful family. Sure there are bumps in the road but driving down a flat surface forever isn't fun. So, I'll buckle up and wait for the expected pothole but also enjoy the scenery because who knows when the next time I'll get to appreciate it is :p
Peace out girl scouts!
Kira
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