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Weird thoughts....O_o I've been have these werid thoughts lately.....Like, is any of this for real, or not? ........... Wow....That kinda just popped out...And if you don't know what I'm talking about, play Kingdom Hearts for about 4 mins, and you'll understand. Oh, and if you don't want to listen to a lecture, just skip the next two paragraphs. Anyways, back on to more serious matters....I've really been having some morbid thoughts lately....Death is a strange thing......I think there are two views on death. One, "I've only got a short time, so I gotta do what I can," and two, "What's the point of living if it's only going to end in death and nothingness?" Now, I'm not saying I'm gonna go out and kill myself....Just some issues popping up in my life that has made me ponder.....I think I have a mixed view.....I want to live really badly, like I could never take mine or anothers(No matter how much I threaten too....) life, probably for the fear of the unknown that lies beyond death.....Death is my worst fear, by the way. No ones going to remember you hundreds of years from now. So what's the point in living if you are going to make no impact on the world? Maybe that's why I have such a drive to become someone famous. But fame is only a temporary thing. Eventually, even celeribties die away from the eye of the public. So, what is the point in living? If your religous, I guess that's what you have to strive for. But sometime I question religon. There is so many, and of course, everyone thinks that they are right. So maybe what you believe isn't what is going to happen. Now, don't go riding on me with a cross screaming, "SATANIST!". I'm just saying. I think I have a more scientific view on life than a religous one. Oh well. Maybe I need to have more courage of my convictions..........The Wizard of Oz is going to haunt me forever. Serious issue numba two: I'm a very curious person. Sometimes, I think too much(Ha ha), may it be creative, crazy thing that will never happen, or the workings of simple things. Yes people, I'm not a total airhead. For example, you can teach me about how a car works, but I'll still be confused on how it "works". You can even go down to the workings of the atoms, but I still won't get it. It would still amaze me. It's hard to explain.....Like, the human mind. How is it that we can have our own individual thoughts? It boggles the mind. It just doesn't seem possible to me. What give it the will to work like that? How did it get like that? And, how it can get things in the body to respond, and how our senses work(Sound especially gets me confused....How can we hear someone thousand of miles away on the phone? How does it get there....?), and all that good jazz? What exactly is a soul? Does a soul really exist.....? And that's the philosphy for today. Now, to some wacked out girly stuff. Yay! heart ....... .......... ............ ....................I WANT A MORE WOMANLY BODY, DAMMIT! scream Okay...Got that out of my system.....But, I do. Strange as it seems, I do. This is comming from a girl who just yelled at her parents because they were telling her to bring the food up to her mouth, and not lick it off her plate. rolleyes But, I do. It must be this damn puberty thing....I don't know.....I wish I actually had an a, and not just my dominating black hips of mine....I want a more curvy figure...I want at least a frickin` B cup! I need to stop wearing sports bras...cuz` my boobs are starting to fall out of `em....I'm just too lazy to put a supportive bra on, and picky to wear `em because when I do, I'm always fiddlin` with `em......GAH! I want a boyfriend. I do. I'm never dating in the friendship circle, `cause that only causes problems in the future....I think all girls secretly wish for a prince charming.....I wish my arms weren't so skiny...I want them more muscular. Lean muscles, mind you. I wish my thighs weren't so fat, but I don't want stick legs, just not fat legs. I wish the little bit `o a I did have wasn't so flabby....I want a firm a, like a melon! 4laugh B CUPS! I WANT B CUP BEFORE THEY START A SAGGIN`! I want my eyebrows waxed. I want my stupid mustache GONE! (FYI: You guys really piss me off when you tease me about that....I'm very self concious. Don't deny it. You've done it before.) I wish my face was clear of acne. I wish my hair wasn't so DAMN hard to handly....I wish to be more womanly! I guess I can make it my goal for next year(Along with some better speech, and better handwriting!)! Sophmore year, watch out! wink EDIT: MY THOUGHTS ON E3 -DAMN YOU, PS3!!! evil Steal the Wii's technology, will ya? BAH! stare -WII!!!!! Why do you have such a weird name? gonk** -Twilight Princess........ drool -I want Spore! I WANTS IT! twisted -I think I'll get a Wii(So wrong... sweatdrop ), because it will probably be the cheapest, and I'm such a Nintendo fangirl.... 4laugh

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Commented on: Fri May 12, 2006 @ 03:51am


	I'M SORRY! I don't even see anything on your for realz....I was just talking about it..I LOVES YOURS HAIR! Dude, I want a boyfriend..too fat...ANYWAY! I was going to say sometin, but it's something my mom would say and I don't want to go there. Just, guys will like you...for what u got now...okay?..okay. Dropping the subject now. And, about the whole nerve system and brain thing research it. it could be likes a little project. And I agree with you on the whole scientific view on religion. Like the debate topic had you really considering religious viewpoints and scientific ones. Believe what you want to believe. My dad and rere (and me too..I guess) thinks (has an idea but doesn't nessesarily believe for certain) the bible is sort of just a bunch of morals to follow your life. Are they true? Sure, possibly. For certain? I don't know. BUT in a lot of religions there's an all knowing being that created and will love you. Its natural to be thinking these things. i think it's like a right of passage..you have to be all confused for a while...well.REALLY confused and then maybe promoted to confused...So, PEace out! -LIVZ

Commented on: Fri May 12, 2006 @ 11:54pm


	I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL! i won't a biggerr butt! my mom makes fun of my butt. she calls it the skillet butt. sad i wish i had a b cup too. i barely make an a cup. my sister got all the looks...i swear. she got the heighth, my mom's lovely butt, and the bigger boobs. dang her. anyway...about the whole religion thing. it's much more than a religious thing for me. it's a deep belief. i talk to God and he has had answered my prayers. whatever you want to believe. it's what i believe. dismiss me if you want. i'm use to it by now. -mogie b. (my family calls me that stare )

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Commented on: Sat May 13, 2006 @ 02:12am


	I'm not dismissing the WHOLE religious thing, just trying to break it down logically. wink

Commented on: Sun May 14, 2006 @ 07:09pm


	HEY I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ALL THIS B-CUP BS YOU GUYS MAKE FUN OF MY CHEST DAILY AND KNOW WHAT I JUST FIGURED OUT YOU GUYS HAVE NO MORE THAN I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AND PERSONALY I DON'T WANT AN a IM PRETTY PLEASED WITH HOW I LOOK KNOW AND I DON'T WANT BIG a BOOBS OK YEAH I SAID WHAT'CHA GONNA DO....THINK ABOUT IT SURE YOU'LL BE ABLE TO FILL OUT SHITS AND DRESSES BUT WHAT THE HELL WILL YOU DO WHEN YOU HAVE TO RUN WITH THEM THE'LL SLOW YA DOWN...WAY DOWN...HOW THE HECK AM I SOPOSED TO BREAK A 6 MINUTE MILE WITH BOOBS IN MY WAY I'LL TELL YOU I DON'T!!!!!..... AND MY BUTT IS MADE FUN OF DAILY AS WELL ((not nearly as much as Zaks however blaugh )) LIKE I SAID IM HAPPY WITH THE WAY I LOOK I WANT TO BE TALLER BUT THATS JUST SO I CAN KICK SO BUTT ON THE COURT!!!!!!....I KINDA WANT MY HAIR TO BE LONG KNOW AND LETS FACE IT IF I QUIT SPORTS ALL TOGETHER MY APPITITE WILL GET THE BETTER OF ME AND IF THAT HAPPENES....LETS JUST SAY IT WON'T BE A GOOD THING!

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Commented on: Mon May 15, 2006 @ 12:39am


	blink blink Okay........ pirate

Commented on: Mon May 15, 2006 @ 01:48am


	Yeah, I know. Sometimes I wonder about the whole Creation thing, too. But then I just figure that I'll believe what I want to believe and face the truth when death comes. You keep naming all these 'bad' traits you have, and refuse to focus on the good stuff. And let's face it: you were GORGEOUS at Snoball. wink But really, you don't have any more of a mustache than anybody else. You may not have the biggest chest, but at least you won't be all saggy when you get older. Big boobs doesn't equal beautiful. I was sick on Friday, as you know, and spent some time watching America's Next Top Model because some of the pictures are really cool (and because there was nothing else on). I'll tell you: some of those women had no boobs and no butt at all. But you know what? They were still very very pretty. And you do NOT have fat legs/thighs. You're like \|\| this big. I know you must be annoyed when we say how cool your hair is when inside you're thinking, How about you have it for a day and see how you like it? I feel like that sometimes about my hair. I love it, but sometimes it's hard to live with it. But you do have awesome hair. And, hey, you can always go bald, right? pirate

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Commented on: Tue May 16, 2006 @ 12:12am


	Jada, Jada, Jada...why do you not like yourself? okay, heres the thing. every little thing you see on yourself and deem a bad trait is blown out of proportion in your mind. wen we look at you we think, hmm. jada. we dont think, OMG! SHE HAS NO BUTT!!!! take this from a person who does the exact same thing. and ahem...you know i do. if everyone loves your hair then your hair is cool. im not saying you have to like it, and i am pretty sure its probably annoying (my mom has curly hair) id trade you some things if i could. i hate my boobs, butt (feel the exact same way as you) and everything else in between. feel luky. there are some people who would bsolutely kill for what you have. ive learned (not really, just for advice) to not talk about something you hate around people. I know you don't do this, but just advice. wen you do, people may not have the things you have, and they feel bad because your luky and complain about it. but hey. we all do this. its fine if you complain about yourself. but wen ur perfectly fine, i have to write really long comments for your journal.

Commented on: Tue May 16, 2006 @ 01:37am


	EVERYONE JUST SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STOP FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELVES ABOUT HOW YOU LOOK! I HAVE A HUGE a**, BUT I LOVE IT. I HAVE NO BOOBS, BUT I LOVE IT. MY HAIRY GETS GREASY AND ANNOYING AND GUESS WHAT I LOVE IT! MY TEETH ARE HORRIBLE... ONCE AGAIN LOVE IT. MY THIGHS COULD FEED A 3RD WORLD COUNTRY.. WHOOPITY DO! I LOVE HOW I AM. EVERYONE WILL FILL OUT IN THERE OWN TIME, AND THEN THEY WILL EITHER LOVE IT OR HATE IT. THERE WILL BE PROS & CONS, GET OVER IT. YOU DON'T LIKE IT, FIX IT URSELF. EXERSICE, EAT TO UR HEARTS CPNTENT! JUST DON'T COMPLAIN. IT'S HIGHSCHOOL! NO ONE IS PERFECT, AND WE NEED TO STOP COMPARING OURSELVES TO ONE ANOTHER. WE ARE THE FUTURE. WE AREN'T SETTING GOOD EXAMPLES! GEEKS UNTIE AND SHOW THE "PERFECT PEOPLE" WE ARE FRIKKIN GORGEOUS THE WAY WE ARE!!!!!!!!

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Commented on: Wed May 24, 2006 @ 01:48am


	Ok, here are my two cents. You gals all look great, I don't see why you need a bigger chest or a larger a**. Sure, great breasts and butt are good and all, but an attractive woman doesnt need either of these really. It's about how you work what you have and keep having a personality. The last thing we need is a world of airheads.

Commented on: Thu May 25, 2006 @ 02:29am


	eek Okay....I didn't really care that much....I was just putting what was on my mind at the moment, okay? xp

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Commented on: Sun May 28, 2006 @ 08:05pm


	rolleyes I didn't want to go here because I'll look gay....but when we go to the beach or the park pool you make me envy when you look twenty times better in your swim suit that what I look in mine.....see now I appear gay.....thanks......

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