Gawl, I'm frickin' tired of this! I'm exhausted, I don't feel good, my knees hurt bad, but I still have to dance for the musical in two choreographies that are right next to each other! I'm so tired of this constant pain in my knees, and back problems....I'm too young to have this kind of daily pain! I'm fourteen, for Goodness Sakes! Most people don't get this until they're like, in their fifties!
I'm tired of having to be at every practice, every night, and not getting home until 6:30 or 7pm! What is happening to my life? I haven't had some good free time to play or read, or hang out with my peeps in sooooo long! ANY spare time that isn't taken up by the musical or school, is taken up P2P, preparing for my trip. GAWD! I'm not leaving until June 26th! Can't I just have some R&R?
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Please?
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Okay, I just took a break after writing that, and looked at it again. And realized how many stupid times I say 'I'. Eleven times in two paragraphs....Does that tell you something? Maybe how close I am to snapping? I get so defensive these days too....even with my friends. I just....lash out. At almost anyone - At a time when I need my peeps the most. Why? Why am I doing this to myself? I could blame it on a lot of things, but I think I've done enough of that. It's time to face the music, and stop putting the blame everywhere but on myself. No, I won't make the same mistake that Job did, of self-righteousness. No, not tonight....
'Night, peeps. I love you all, so much.
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Zed for Something starting with Zed. I dunno. It sounded cool. Anyway. Things here that I want to save, rants, updates, etc. Yeah......
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