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Depression Im sorry Ihaven been on in a looooooooooonnnnnnnnngggggggggg time. I have been dealing with alot. I have finally stop cutting big whop, but i still feel upset. My mother is doing her "im gonna be your wicked stepmother thing and only care for your sister..." and my dad is raely home. I have my eye on a guy at camp and i think he likes me to, im starting to eat less, im not hyper as i was....i dont know why... crying cry I hate life but I have to live it.... I HATE IT!!!!! Keefe-san suldnt have died! I should have.... crying crying crying

Posted by: GoddessAmaya Mon Jun 26, 2006 @ 11:20pm

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Commented on: Tue Jun 27, 2006 @ 02:58am


	J-chan! mad Do you have the Graffitti Kingdom book with you? If you do, reread what P-chan, I-chan, and I said when you said this last time. Killing yourself isn't gonna make anything better! You wouldn't be doing anything making it worse. scream PEOPLE WHO COMMIT SUICIDE DON'T GO TO HEAVEN YA KNOW!!! We all love you, I'm pretty sure your mom does too, she just shows it a different way than most people. You know, the type of people who try to get along with you but end up rubbing you the wrong way...

Commented on: Thu Jun 29, 2006 @ 12:41pm


	p-chan has it and i know ur right b-chan but i feel my life slipping and god might be happy im not goin to heaven....i just cant bear life....I NEEDA HUG!!!!!!! gonk emo

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Commented on: Thu Jun 29, 2006 @ 05:20pm


	huggles J-chan, that's not true. Please don't kill yourself, I just couldn't bare know someone, a friend, to commit suicide and I couldn't do anything to stop them. Please J-chan, don't do anything horrible, you just demand love from your family. Talk about it with them, pwease...

Commented on: Thu Jun 29, 2006 @ 06:33pm


	J-chan!! Dont say that stuff! You make C-kun happy! If he finds out he's gonna be sad. Commiting suicide wont help with anything....Its just gonna make stuff worse....People are gonna get sad over you and and...that stuff... I remember in the beginning of the year i thought of doing that..but then i thought of all the people that cared about me....My best friends.....Think about who cares about you...Theres me h-chan, most definatly c-kun, and a whole lot of other people. Hugs j-chan with Omachae

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Commented on: Thu Jun 29, 2006 @ 08:58pm


	Yes you really shouldnt say things like that. My life would be meaningless without you. So dont even think about things like that. huggles

Commented on: Thu Jun 29, 2006 @ 10:05pm


	See you make c-kuns life meaningful.....and you make him happy....he would have a breakdown without you...

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Commented on: Sat Jul 01, 2006 @ 12:50am


	thanks but my mind wont change...i have dreams of diying and im happy with those dreams....apart of me wants to die but the other part doesnt....i cant bare it....

Commented on: Sat Jul 01, 2006 @ 07:13pm


	NOO!! PLEASE GO WITH THE PART THAT SAYS STAY ALIVE!!! ........i used to have the same thoughts that you have now....i never really fit in....until i noticed how many people actually cared about me.....think of all the people that care about you....me, Omachae, c-kun, ein-chan, h-chan, ev-chan, Megalan, acorn/bucket head, nicole, and a whole lot of other people....my sunday school teachers say that suicide is the one way ticket to Hell forever....so think about it......would you rather stay in Hell forever where you get tortured.....or would you rather live with the people that are happy that your around....that care about you..... cry

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Commented on: Sun Jul 02, 2006 @ 03:47am


	stare No they become Shinigami not angels and you can't go to heaven you have to make people stop crying and deal with snot nosed kids if you commit suicide... plus i'll bring you back and kill you again if you do, i'm already condemned to hell might as well make going there worth every sin i've done! ^^ lmao

Commented on: Sun Jul 02, 2006 @ 03:50pm


	Holly? ......That doesnt really help.....So shut up stare

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Commented on: Tue Jul 04, 2006 @ 02:54am


	Look i dont care....my whole life has been bad. I never was the prettiest or the smartest, or the most talented....Everythime I thought I found my calling I find out there are other people way better than me and people will never take me....God said he cares for everyone but HE FORGOT ME!!!!!!!!!! I never got anything and I desevre better.....so I cant.... crying crying crying crying

Commented on: Tue Jul 04, 2006 @ 03:15am


	everything does get better sis, if you need somone to talk to im always here.

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Commented on: Tue Jul 04, 2006 @ 03:25am


	Oh my lord. Jordan, I'm sorry, but yuor last post had to be the biggest piece of BS i've ever read. And believe you me, I heard some crappy comments before. Why the heck are you comparing yourself to other people? Your unique in your own way! Why the heck do you think Chris likes you? Your not afraid to speak your mind, your a brilliant person, and commiting suicide would only hurt everyone else. Jordan, wheater you realize this or not, were your friends! You think your the only person suffering on the freakin' planet!? There are children who have no homes, no lives, never been to school, or never even knew there families! Stop acting selfish, and WAKE-UP! We all love you J-chan, and you know, deep down, that killing yourself is stupid! Your smarter than that! Look, this is your your life. I'm not telling you how to run it. Were only trying to help. But if you can't even believe in your own abilities, if youtruley believe we'd all be better off without you, then you don't even deserve to be going to 9th grade! I'm not being harsh, I'm not being EMO, I'm not even being stupid. I'm being truthful. WE CARE about your life, if no one else does. WE ARE YOUR FRIENDS. WE WILL ALWAYS TRY TO BE THERE FOR YOU! Please Jordan.......for us.......grow-up, act your age, and have a good summer. Eight weeks fo school off only comes once a year. PLEASE.

Commented on: Thu Jul 06, 2006 @ 11:40pm


	PLease Jordan! starts to cry crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo cry cry cry cry cry cry cry

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Commented on: Mon Jul 10, 2006 @ 10:39pm


	OKAY!!!!! Im still upset but I wont...for now wink smile

Commented on: Mon Jul 10, 2006 @ 11:49pm


	mad You mean you won't ever do it! J-chan, about the talent thing... If you really found a talent that you think you truely are really good at, then keep on working harder at it. Even if you think someone is better at it than you, then make it a goal to become better than them and never give up! Never give up on life, J-chan!

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Commented on: Thu Jul 13, 2006 @ 11:43pm


	oh course u would say that.... stare

Commented on: Thu Jul 13, 2006 @ 11:47pm


	I'd only say that because I'm optimistic. No more looking at the dark past look into the bright future. puts headlights on you head Always look on the bright side and you're life will seem brighter day by day! n_n Good aways happens if you look on the bright side!

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