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Do I have any real friends out there that wont hide crap from me and will let me talk to them about this problem? Do I have friends out there that just are nice and are ******** honest with me 24 7? Because right now I need that friend so bad right now to help me through a situation that has been happening since the 11 of this month.

My 'best' friend is dating my ex boyfriend, Chris and they have been dating since the 11 of this month but I already could guess because of their myspaces. They ******** HID it from me for like 2-3 weeks and finally Amber tells me last night and she has the guts to ask me if I was alright after saying it. No I am not alright I ******** love this man and you date him behind my mother ******** back!!! That is ******** putiful I am full of so much rage that I dont even want to look at her right now. Then Chris ******** writes me a message on myspace asking me if i was doing alright and that he has been helping them move and been working now and repeats am I alright. WHY WOULD I BE ALRIGHT. Someone PLEASE explain to me how I can be alright after this whole situation finally comes out to be honest truth?

I love Christopher with all of my heart and I was just going to be friends with him like he said but ******** that doesnt mean my best friend can date gim after she said she would never ******** date him. She ******** promised me that after I told her to go right the ******** ahead. And you know that made me feel special to know a friend wouldnt go and do that s**t. And now look what ******** happened. This is total ******** bullshit it would have been alot better if they would have told me the DAY they started dating instead 2-3 ******** weeks AFTER they started dating.

******** I am to ******** mad right now I dont know what the ******** I should do to both of them because she is like my god damn sister and he is the man I love with all of my heart. This pisses me off so ******** badly.