At times... I wonder if Joe and I truly connect, or if it is just another relationship doused in the make-believe wonderland of sexual fantasy and long time periods. I often think that we really are jsut going out for the sex and for the amount in days... and it sickens me. I can't help but want something new. I want to experience someone else hugging me and telling me that things are all right... I want to just be done with it all... but at the same time, I don't want to lose Joe because I feel as if part of myself is in him and no one else could connect as we do. I fear that connection simply because it prohibits me from any knowledge of what I want beyond tall, sweet, and smart.
Right now I just want someone else to say those words... so that they might actually mean something to me now.
 haloisbymyhorns · Fri Apr 13, 2007 @ 03:17am · 0 Comments |
