• To You,
    I told you I did not want you forever, but it was a lie. You saw that my actions were the opposite of my words. You knew that it cut me so deep every time you walked away, yet you continued to take your leave when I needed you most. I wish to God I'd never stepped in your corner in the Ring of Life. You didn't have my back when I needed someone to defend me even though I would've laid down my life in exchange for yours.

    You - you were only in it for that one thing. Ten minutes and you were gone and I was left feeling used and unloved. "Go on - it's okay," I would say. But the tears would stream down my face while my arms were outstretched toward you as the words escaped my trembling lips. You never were that great, but you were all I had. I can't believe I fell right into your arms knowing it would end. I guess I just had it set in my mind you might see my loneliness and have compassion on me - take me as your own, instead of using me and throwing me away like you did.

    You - you may have nearly killed me, but I have to thank you. Every time you walked away to go to that other woman you tore me down a little, but you showed me what a true dog is. Thank you for showing me what love doesn't feel like. Thank you for teaching me the true meaning of selfishness. You always told me I should strive to improve the world. You told me of sacrifice and greater things. Then you turned and stabbed me in the back. I could've listened to your dreams in admiration forever if you'd only been the man you spoke of. You tried to destroy my life while talking of building up others. Thank you for driving me to my lowest and leaving me for dead. If you hadn't done this, I might've still been lonely in your arms. Now I'm truly happy in my love's arms. He holds me and treasures me and treats me like the woman I wish I could be. He strives to help me reach my goals, and won't let me stop until I'm on that mountaintop. He holds me close and whispers words of truth in my ear, not beautiful lies. He loves me and I will never deserve him, but I will always strive to be worthy of him.

    ~Truly Happy

    P. S. - You were wrong about never going back to the one you leave. Maybe someday you'll be as happy as me (without being an alcoholic and womanizer) if you forgive your true love and yourself and try again. NEVER LEAVE TRUE LOVE.