• (everything being said is what Rain is thinking and describeing to himself. because of the link Phoe hears it all and might even have known about what is on Rain's mind for a while.)


    It had been raining for hours stright, the sun didn't shine so brightly today and now that it was makeing its apearence, it was starting to set over the horizon. The day was ending fast and changeing into night, and like it, my life was doing the same. I am walking to Phoe's house and the path before me is littered with puddles. My clothing was damp, the rain had just recently stoped. Thats my fault. I lower my gaze to the ground and walk though the puddles that are in my path. I wanted to belive that i had compleate control over the storm, but i didn't. I thought that i could fight it head on and beat the storm into submission, but i couldn't. I wanted to belive that on my own i could weather though any storm alone and shift the path of the storm, that is my life, any direction i willed it. The puddles glowered red from the setting sun as if resenting the choice i made and the path i walk. My eyes catch the ripples in the shinning red lit waters before me. I step in a puddle and the shinning reflection distorts and splashes; the ripples quickly fade and the water calm. I set my eyes back on the path before me and continue on my way.


    I wanted to belive that when a storm crossed my path i would be strong enough to endure, but the truth is... i'm not. I wished i had control over all storms, i wished i had power over my destiny and wich paths i crossed in life...i realise now that i don't. I was searching for a way for Redemption, and a way to give me a second chance in life. I had gotten so blinded by my quest that i lost sight of my goal. I wanted to gather as much strength as i could to acomplish my goal, but i had forgoten why i wanted to do it in the first place. The sun was breifly hidden by a passing cloud. I stop as i recall. I had let myself become a monster blinded and captivated by the shimmering path before me instead of my goal at the end of the road. My misson in life of Redemption was being replaced by one of self-destruction. I would lie to myself and say, "the more blood i shed, the closer i am to forgiveness." In truth, the only thing i was closer to... was death. i knew this, but i felt like i deserved it for all the crimes i have commited. I became so blinded by this false mission that i hurt the ones i care about most in life. the ground sparkled with the red light as the cloud past by the sun. i had gone so far as to threaten the lifes of those i cared most about; thats when i knew i had to change. I got down on my knees and cryed out to God to please help me, everything else i had tryed had failed, (it was my last ditch effort.) then i remebered, that was the only thing i had to do. I was liveing my second chance, i just didn't use it. the entire time all i had to do was cry out and ask for forgivness.... I laugh as i remeber it now and realize how easy it was....That is all he wanted from me. He did not want me to destroy myself or anyone else. If i wanted Redemtion from all of my unholy sins and crimes, all i had to was ask. I'm almost at her house now, I'm just a little ways away.


    It rained that day, when i got on my knees. My blood stained hair...my blood red curse...it was finaly washing away. The light is fadeing fast, the sun is almost level with the horizon. Day for the most part was already gone and became night. I am standing in front of Phoe's house now. I have renewed vigor; a new mission to honor, protect, and to fight for my King.


    The Crimson sun was setting fast and faiding into night, and like today i too became a knight.