• As I woke up I knew something was going to happen, I could feel it in my soul. I did not think much of it though because I was going to have the best day today no matter what. I was going to ask out my one true love who I have had a crush on since the 7th grade. He was perfect. He was tan and had blond hair and light beautiful brown eyes. He was athletic and such a nice guy, He was nice to everyone and always had a great humor. I looked at the clock just to notice that I better stop daydreaming or I was going to miss the bus. I jumped into the shower, and after a few minutes I got out and got dressed into my black cargo pants, my red shirt, and my red and black striped gloves. I brushed and blow dried my hair then off I was just in time to get on the bus. I sat by my friend Clare and we laughed, and talked but mostly I was silent and nervous about what I was going to do, I was going to finally take the risk. The bus stopped at the little kid school first, I was getting more anxious by the minute, then the middle school, then finally my school, the high school. I ran off the bus and bolted to my locker. I put my stuff into my first period class and turned around to the sound of Keith’s voice I opened my mouth, but nothing came out. He stared at me then smiled. “Did you want something Saya?” I tried to tlak till finally a word came out. “Um….nah,,,no” I was so mad at myself NO! why would I say that no I am so stupid then he gave me another chance. “Are you sure?” “No I’m not sure…keith I was just wandering if…maybe you would..go out with me!?” I blurted it out and everyone went silent, his face went serious “I’m sorry, but I am already dating someone.” I went silent and walked away embarrassed as ever. I stayed in the office for the rest of the day crying. Then when I finally came out I heard something I didn’t want to hear I heard Keith’s voice with his friend Bryan I hid behind the trashcan and listened. “She is so stupid, why would I ever date her I mean seriously.” They laughed. “Your not really dating anyone right?” “Right, I am just lucky she didn’t know that, jeez I mean really she is just some flat chested wanna bee plus goth isn’t really my choice in a girl.” More laughter. I ran as fast as I could to my bus Keith heard me running he yelled. “SAYA WAIT COME BACK LET ME EXPLAIN!” I didn’t stop running I ran into my bus. Once it hit the middle school I ran past some kids and got off the bus and walked the rest the way home crying. I finally reached home and looked in the mirror, tears stained my face, black from the eyeliner, my cheeks were red from the stinging cold, My hair all ratted up. I went into my closet and got ready for the dance that night, I had some hope that was not going to give up, maybe he was just saying that cause he is a prep. I got myself excited, I dresses in my black flowing gown. It wrapped around my neck and my shoulders. MY hair was in a bun with chopsticks, and my bangs were to the side, I put on my black eye liner and eye shadow and headed for the dance. Once there the music was blasting and the people were laughing me and my friends were dancing and having a great time till, he came. A slow song began to play it was Watch me bleed by scary kids scaring kids. He came over toward me my heart raced then he put out his hand I grabbed it and was lead to the dance floor. “Saya, I’m so sorry you heard that, but what you have to understand is…” he paused “Is what Keith?” he sighed “Saya, I can’t love you, I can’t even like you, your not normal, you actually sorta…scare me. And you have no looks I am interested in.” we stopped dancing I pushed him and ran he ran after me and grabbed my arm. “Saya…” I turned around before he could finish what he was saying and slapped him across the mouth. He slowly dropped his hand and I ran to the door and ran outside till I got to the soccer field. I laid down on the muddy ground and looked up at the starry sky crying, thinking… ‘I gave him everything, I gave him my heart, my trust, I thought he loved me, he flirted with me, why live…when all there is, is pain.?’ I got up and walked toward the woods I walked through the path deep in the woods. I kneeld down, and in the mud I wrote :Keith morin, I loved you, and you hurt me, I can’t live without you…: There was a shattered beer bottle laying next to me I picked up the biggest piece, and stabbed it deep inside my stomach, I fell into the mud feeling every single sharp pain, soon It was black…

    I woke up like every morning, the same took a shower brushed my teeth and off to school, although I didn’t expect for Saya to be speechless. She approached me and opened her mouth no words came out so finally I had to say something to get her to talk, “Did you want something Saya?”she was silent but finally spoke “ahhh…No” that was a lie although I had to admit she was beautiful when she was speechless. “Are you sure?” her face brightened showing her true beauty too bad I could never be with her, although she is beautiful I am suppose to be seen with the cheerleaders it would never work for me and her, and I couldn’t handle what my friends would say. “No I’m not sure…keith I was just wandering if…maybe you would..go out with me!?”I was shocked, oh how bad I wanted to say maybe or yes but I just can’t great how to put her down easy. “Saya I’m sorry but I have a girlfriend.”she just walked away she seemed so hurt I went all threw history worrying about her, but I got over it, when I heard that the head cheerleader liked me, so when my friend bryan told me he asked me about Saya, I couldn’t say I felt bad he would think that was lame so I said whatever I could I lied about everything. “yeah I know, she is such a freak and too flat chested for my taste. And besides I don’t go for Goths.” Truthfully I regretted everything, “are you really dating someone Kieth?” “huh No I just said that.” I suddenly heard running someone had been listening I ran to the other side of the wall it was saya, I felt horrible why, why was I so stupid, “SAYA LET ME EXPLAIN!!!” she wouldn’t I went home depressed that night, soon came the dance I wasn’t going to go but I decided for her to be alright I needed to break her heart and let her hate me I mean it’s only a crush anyway. It was the dance and I headed straight for her at the slow dance then finally told her. “saya I am sorry you heard that but what you have to understand is…” she looked worried but I knew I had to make her hate me I couldn’t have her in pain. “I could never love you, your goth and flat chested and you sorta scare me.” She didn’t say anything she ran away, I had hurt her even more could I be any stupider. I grabbed her arm “Saya!” suddenly before I could blink she slapped me it stung like hell but I knew I deserved it, I stared at her in shock I dropped my grip, watching her run, I figured she would go home and be fine. The next day the police showed up at my house. “Yes?” “are you Keith?” I looked at them “yes I am is there a problem?” it was raining and freezing out I didn’t want them to be long. “No but we heard you were last seen with Saya Shiro is that correct?” I was shocked “Yes what happened?” “She has gone missing do u know anything about it?” “no I just saw her run away outside I thought she would go home.” They left after questioning and I was growing worried I had my mom drop me off at the school I ran around frantically calling for her then I went behind the school, I saw her purse on the stairs leading to the soccer field. I ran uo there, there were muddy footprints everywhere of cleets, but only one pair of high heels, I followed them till they lead to the woods path I ran to it till I saw the most horrible sight I have ever seen, there lay Saya laying there with a piece of glass in her stomach I ran to her side and held her crying, my tears hit her face and I looked down at her she was even beautiful in death, I looked at the mud by her there drawn were words hard to read but I managed It said :Keith morin I loved you, and you hurt me, I can’t live without you.: I cried even louder, “saya I loved you too, I wish I only told you that, why saya why didn’t you just give me more time,” I sat there with her in my arms until the cops found us, I was questioned and I told her story, and how I hurt her, they thought awfully of me and her family hated me. I cant blame them I never can for I hate me too.

    It’s been a few years now and still her face haunts me, “SAYA NO I STILL LOVE YOU!” I grabbed her then we sunk into the mud I was suffocating I was dieing…I woke up screaming until I opened my eyes. I looked in my mirror and got up and put on my jeans and my red shirt, I called my friend bryan and told him to come pick me up to go get some milk and the super market. When he came I told him of my dream and he thought I was nuts. When we got to the super market bryan elbowed me “Hey Keith check out that hotty” I sighed and looked she was turned around she wore tight blue jeans and red high heels, with a black shirt on, and short brown/blond hair. “she could be ugly for all you know..” then she turned around I couldn’t believe it, it was Saya her bangs to the side her bright blue eyes, she walked past me and looked me in the eyes and smiled, Bryans mouth dropped to the floor, he couldn’t believe it either, we watched her walk away my breathing was heavy, I followed her. “Dude where are you going?” I didn’t say a word. “It’s not saya dude stop.” I went outside and looked around I turned she was in front of me, she raised her hand and put it on the side of my face “Saya….” Then she dissapeard into the wind. I dropped to my knees and buried my face in my hands bryan came out and put his hand on my shoulder. “Guy it wasn’t her” “YES IT WAS IT WAS SAYA!” and it was too he didn’t believe me and neither did anyone else, but I knew, I knew that was Saya, Saya was still on this earth, and by the look in her eyes she had something to finish…

    THE END