• When I went inside the gates, I realized it wasn't as bad as I thought. It was beautiful. It had a mall, a cafe, basically everything they had on Earth except cleaner and better! And whoever dined with dead rockstars before? I remember sitting next to Marilyn Monroe in the movie theater watching a movie, sharing a bucket of popcorn. I learned that I could go back down to Earth to visit my loved ones whenever I wanted. I ALWAYS went down to see Connor. I knew he probably couldn't hear me so I never talked. He was ussually always by my grave. Those were the only times I ever saw Connor cry. And that would make me cry silently to myself because it ripped my heart out. I would have traded anything to be back on Earth with Connor. And I knew I never could. So I returned to Heaven, more depressed and sad then I had ever been in my life.