• Everyone is happy. Everyone has a lover. Everyone has peace of mind. Everyone but me. I am alone, without a family. No one wants to take me in. No one loves me. I am merely a child, lost in the big world today. I feel like I am an outcast, a shadow, someone who shouldn't have exsisted. Every night it gets worse and worse. So bad in fact, that I want to kill myself. I have nothing in my life to live for.

    People don't know I exsist! I wish I was never born. But if I do kill myself, then hell would galdly welcome me, and then I might actuly have someone look at me. But if I stay and make it though the day until I die, Hevan would be a warm welcome and I will be cared for then, maybe even see my family again.

    I guess this was ment to be. Me not to have a lover, not to have a family, not to be happy. I just wish, that all of this is a bad dream