• I’m alone and in pain,
    I feel like that everything I’ve had
    Are now running through my veins

    I’ve lost all hope of finding love,
    Having friends, and having a happy family.
    Every night I dream about what
    My brother is doing in the heavens above.
    Maybe, just maybe, he is having a better life than I.

    When I walk into a room I now feel as if
    Everything is changing right before my eye.
    It isn’t something I want at all, and right now
    It feels like I’m standing here just like a brick wall.

    At school I pretend that nothings wrong and every things okay.
    I do this every second, minute and every day.
    Sometimes when I go home to sleep I pray that someday it’ll all go away.

    When I walk pass the guy I like at school,
    I think to myself “damn I’m such a fool”
    But then I realized I’m not the fool, he is just a tool.
    When the day ends and I come home, I like to turn the music up,
    shut the door and cry.

    Or when I’m in the shower I stand there and cry,
    Crying because of all the horrible things that day.
    Hoping and wishing it’ll all go away.

    One day, some day, I want this all to end.
    Some day, one day, all I pray is for a friend.
    Maybe just maybe, a guy will see me as me,
    And accept me for who I am.
    All I ever wanted in my whole life was
    To have a friend, feel loved, and be accepted.

    I never knew how much pain I’m in,
    I never knew how much people don’t ask for my opinion
    Is asking, “I want this all to end,” asking way too much?
    Everything that I thought or believed in was all a lie.
    Right now all I want to do is just say goodbye.

    My heart is broken down to a thousand pieces.
    Shattered to the ground.
    Why? Why? Why!?
    I crouch down and within seconds I’m flooded in tears,
    Having too many thoughts, and too many fears.

    When I go back home, I’ll go to my room
    And cry till I fall asleep and dream, that someday
    That this will all end, and hope
    That everything will be okay,
    Next weekend.