• All these years I've been trying to hide
    Behind my fake smile.
    Pretending to love you seemed to me
    To be the only way out.


    It hurts me to know that you don't care to see the real me.
    You don't see how hurt I am
    You don't see how much I cry silently at night,
    Wondering how it will all end.

    If it was anybody else,
    I believe that they would be able to see
    The real me.
    The me that is in way too deep.

    I feel like I'm stuck in quicksand.
    Each time I try to pull away,
    I sink more and more,
    And you're the one pulling me down.

    All I wanted, was to get out
    I tried time and time again.
    But each time I lost my courage,
    Each time I didn't tell you, I was in even deeper.

    I was in a hole so deep
    That I couldn't even see daylight at the top.
    I needed help,
    But you made sure that I never went for it.


    I tried to love you,
    I tried to hate you,
    But neither seems to work.
    When I think of you, I feel nothing.
    I am completely numb.