• I have to again just once more...
    And, and I'll be done... Good I'm cured,
    but is it just for today? Can I go, and
    could I not feel him.... Pain when I see
    his eye's...... Like blood rushing out of my
    mouth, and fingertip's! Why am I so
    reliant on having to.. When I can?
    could this be normal has it been turning
    into a normal thing now? No I've gone once...
    But even then I hoped again, an again...
    No! Don't fall into the same bandaged arm's
    and heart cycle. That is nothing but the remains
    of dead hope... Remember those dead images
    of a future that has yet to ever to start!?
    But the unknown has me so bad it is known!
    It knows I dearly want it cutting away again...
    I want the blade against my...
    I have to use it against my...
    My, my, my nothingness I have for it...
    Just press and their is no need for too
    much pressure just slide it...It ain't much to
    cut me anymore you know you can do it...Do it!
    You have before just think of it as before.....
    You done it before... Don't you remember...
    The slit's on my arms and HEART!?
    I like it... Just do it like before, LIKE BEFORE...
    I got a cure... Just do it like before!
    I hand my own razor blade before him like before...
    Cause I want more of my own pain and shame!
    So much more like before... before I bleed and wanted
    pain like so much more... Why can't it be like before???