• i look to see the loved ones and the ones i admired and looked up to so much to see there cold faces looking down on me i feel alone in a cold desert looking for someone everyone to save me i see the people i love i look to them to help me they trun and walk away some know of what they have done others thinking it for the best i feel angrey abandoned and tired of it all i feel that if i try to get close itll be useless im like a niffe if u come near me ill cut u if i try to get close to u ill cut my self seeing myself dead on the inside but somehow countueing to move ahead im like posion gas that invades a town of people looking for a way to help but just cuseing pain im like a messed up gone i can't protect myself i have it back fire onto me befor it even harms those who are evil i fall to the floor weeping and crying but its useless those who left do not wish to come back they derserted me and iv deserted myself moveing but not liveing eating but not growing sleeping but not dreaming loveing but not reciveing hateing but getting more of it i guss this is what its like when ur abandon by those u trusted