........................Emptyness......................
well... yesterday ... finished homework... sat around ... watched t.v. ... checked online every hour or so .... continued to call ben .... got no answer .... got worried ... ate a little supper .... called .... and called ... and called.... and then his cell phone was actually turned on late that night.... he didn't answer... he called back... and somewhere around 11:15 last night i found out why i hadn't heard from him all day ... *chokes down the urge to cry* ... after 8 beautiful months... he broke up with me ... *starts crying softly* ... of course there wont be any details as to why... i can't bare to go over them again ... i'm trying my hardest to show him that i need him ... i don't know yet if it is/will work(ing) ... i have yet another hour to wait to see if he comes online or not... i stayed home from school today... didn't sleep a wink last night... and the reason for that was crying and one thing only ben might understand... i forgot to breathe... i think i'll give up now.. i only seem to get hurt over and over again... till next time...
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Kay
