Mood: Lost
Song: Sell Your Soul; Hollywood Undead
I'm lost.
And I don't even know where to begin.
I can't believe you.
And I don't.
But I don't know what it is.
But it makes me stop and think, "What if he's telling the truth this time?"
Really,
What if he's not making me hate him but he's telling the truth.
And nothing but the truth.
Ohhh my trust issues.
You hit the spot buddy.
I half way want to talk about it with you.
To not face this reality.
However, I promise Lisa I wouldn't
And that's one promise I intend to keep.
Maybe they were always right from the beginning - that we were a disaster.
Oh wait.
According to you it was nothing to begin with.
But isn't it funny; the times you've gotten upset over pixle things.
Remember though...It doesn't mean anything. Its just your escape.
Ahh but you come on here to feel happiness?
Isn't that an emotion this world conjures up?
Ahh but wait. It means nothing after all.
Yes.
I am a bitter person.
Yes.
I have trust issues.
Yes.
I am a liar.
You're becoming worse than me if you stop and look at yourself.
A worse liar.
You push out people you loved.
You bring hate upon yourself.
Its becoming difficult to say nice attributes about you.
You've actually left me speechless this time.
I was nothing to you at all...?
I can't face that.
I can't see you doing that.
Ever.
Ever.
Ever.
Even if you say I didn't know you.
There's no way you'd do this.
No way in hell.
How can you fake that much feeling?
You can't.
You just can't.
Even the best liars cannot.
Nope nope.
You've almost accomplished your goal my darling, getting me to hate you that is.
Maybe I will transform you into a monster.
Won't take much from the venom you spat at me last night.
Drew was right.
Ha ha ha.
I shouldn't have trusted you.
Sad thing is.
I still do.
I'm blind to this.
As I've said, you could use me and I could careless.
Well. It hurt.
But.
I can't bring myself to hate you.
Dunno why.
I've tried.
But something inside my heart is like "No. You can't hate that f*****t."
And its true.
I've come close to hating you so so sooo much.
But...It vanishes.
I just want to sleep.
I want you to text me.
And say we can be friends.
I want to sleep.
And wake up from this nightmare.
Us to be like we were.
I want to sleep.
Wash away my sadness
And dream of better times.
But that won't happen.
You've gone this far.
You won't back out.
I need to accept this.
Face it.
I need to face your true, ugly colors my love.
Yes, its true.
Even after all you've said to me.
I'll love you.
I'm the fool.
But you're just a prisoner inside yourself.
Song: Sell Your Soul; Hollywood Undead
I'm lost.
And I don't even know where to begin.
I can't believe you.
And I don't.
But I don't know what it is.
But it makes me stop and think, "What if he's telling the truth this time?"
Really,
What if he's not making me hate him but he's telling the truth.
And nothing but the truth.
Ohhh my trust issues.
You hit the spot buddy.
I half way want to talk about it with you.
To not face this reality.
However, I promise Lisa I wouldn't
And that's one promise I intend to keep.
Maybe they were always right from the beginning - that we were a disaster.
Oh wait.
According to you it was nothing to begin with.
But isn't it funny; the times you've gotten upset over pixle things.
Remember though...It doesn't mean anything. Its just your escape.
Ahh but you come on here to feel happiness?
Isn't that an emotion this world conjures up?
Ahh but wait. It means nothing after all.
Yes.
I am a bitter person.
Yes.
I have trust issues.
Yes.
I am a liar.
You're becoming worse than me if you stop and look at yourself.
A worse liar.
You push out people you loved.
You bring hate upon yourself.
Its becoming difficult to say nice attributes about you.
You've actually left me speechless this time.
I was nothing to you at all...?
I can't face that.
I can't see you doing that.
Ever.
Ever.
Ever.
Even if you say I didn't know you.
There's no way you'd do this.
No way in hell.
How can you fake that much feeling?
You can't.
You just can't.
Even the best liars cannot.
Nope nope.
You've almost accomplished your goal my darling, getting me to hate you that is.
Maybe I will transform you into a monster.
Won't take much from the venom you spat at me last night.
Drew was right.
Ha ha ha.
I shouldn't have trusted you.
Sad thing is.
I still do.
I'm blind to this.
As I've said, you could use me and I could careless.
Well. It hurt.
But.
I can't bring myself to hate you.
Dunno why.
I've tried.
But something inside my heart is like "No. You can't hate that f*****t."
And its true.
I've come close to hating you so so sooo much.
But...It vanishes.
I just want to sleep.
I want you to text me.
And say we can be friends.
I want to sleep.
And wake up from this nightmare.
Us to be like we were.
I want to sleep.
Wash away my sadness
And dream of better times.
But that won't happen.
You've gone this far.
You won't back out.
I need to accept this.
Face it.
I need to face your true, ugly colors my love.
Yes, its true.
Even after all you've said to me.
I'll love you.
I'm the fool.
But you're just a prisoner inside yourself.
