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Mood: tired.
Song: Take Me to Infinity; Breathe Carolina

Soo...
I decided to come back.
But I won't be on as much.
I suppose?

I realized some thingssss.
I needed space.
I felt suppressed with all these people around.

Thinking.
At first it felt like I was running away.
And I was kinda ashamed.
At myself.

But I wasn't running away.
no, no, no.
I just needed my space.
My time to think.

Now I know what to do.
Err..What I plan on doing.
I won't forget you.

I was just scared.
I didn't want to lose what we had built.
But I kept trying to push out those memories.
Because they were painful.

That's not what I need to do.
I need to remember them.
Cherish them.
Yes, its going to hurt.
But I won't let my memories become wasted like trash.

Backed into that corner.
I was trying to grasp at something.
Anything.
But then I'd toss it aside from the surge of pain.

No, no, no.
Forgetting you isn't the answer.
Right now I'm kind of stuck.
To talk to you or not.

I think...I'll let you come to me.
If you do.
And if you don't...well..
That's just something I'll have to handle on my own.

I won't get mad at you over it.
I'll understand your reasoning.
Yes, I'll get sad...But I still have many more memories to look back on.

I miss you so much its unbelievable.
But that's just another emotion that will slowly fade away.

Hmmm.
Dunno.
Just need time.
But does time heal everything?