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Mood: ******** off ******
Song: Anywhere but Here, Mayday Parade

I miss you, you know.
Like a lot.

It surprises me how much more it irritates me when your not online
compared to when you are.

Its like an annoying itch that won't go away.
Guess I was wrong when I said I wish I never saw you online.
So wrong.

I hope I can talk to you soon.
If I man up.
And even if I get rejected, I can let myself know that I at least tried.


Secret love
my escape
take me far, far away.

I'm kind of pissed off.
Like seriously.
This whole week I've been kinda pissy.

One: I miss you.
Two: I miss Lisa.
Three: Tons of s**t at school
Four: Kait and Erik.

It makes me so pissed off that Kait always blames herself.
What kind of relationship is that?
One sided?
I know she loves him to death.
I know she'd do ANYTHING for him.
I understand that.

But aren't relationships about equality?
Isn't that what women fought for?

And then it pisses me off that Erik always runs away.
Or answers the question with another question.
He needs to man up and open up.

Yeah its hard to trust people.
I can understand that too.
Yeah he got hurt.
I can understand that too.

But what the ******** kind of relationship is one that lacks trust?
A hollow one.
She loves him so much...And puts so much effort into their relationship...
But he does nothing.
Well maybe he does.
But its quiet lacking.

And to be honest
that really pisses me off.

He should cherish Kait.
She's adorable.
Funny.
And smart as ********.

She's basically a man's dream.
Like I'm not even saying all this stuff cuz I'm her friend.
Its the truth.

I bet there's like tons of fags who want Kait, but she chose Erik out of all of them.
He should ******** feel proud to have a chick like that.
But no.
He's too busy smoking some weed
and ******** around with his friends.

It gets on my nerves soooo bad.
So, so bad.

On a different note...

I miss the ******** out of that queer.
Like seriously.
I find myself thinking about what he's doing.
And if it hurt him any that I said I would hate him.
But I'm scared to over analyze him.
I'm scared to look at him like a puzzle.
Its not right.

Ramsey: I'll be your new bestie. You can forget that guy.

Nah.
I won't.
And that pissed me off.
I was like
"Get the ******** out of my business. I never asked anyone to replace him. I DON'T want a replacement. I'm fine with my bitterness."
God it pissed me off.
But its really kinda a silly thing to get mad over right?

I guess you never saw the best friend day entry.
...I really wish I texted you or something.
I want to apologize to you.
But I don't regret what I said.
Oddly I do not.
I wanted to vent.
And it happened.
Maybe not in the best way...But it happened.

I'm only sorry it was so harsh.

But you were harsher talk2hand
That actually hurt me more than I lead on btw. xDD