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You have no idea what it's like to finally be able to get on here and see all these...comments...on your journal and profile, even from people I've roleplayed with! God. I love you guys. <3 Um. Five days ago, I died. o.o Seriously. My heart gave out, I guess. I don't know if they jumpstarted it or what, but it was the strangest feeling, I could have sworn I saw these shadows telling me to turn around and go back..Like angels? I woke up with this searing pain in my chest and an awful fever. And. It's a really long story, but the bottom line is that I'm still here. Haven't gotten rid of me yet. I guess that I'll be going in a few months anyway, since my immune system is practically nonexistent. I'm still in the hospital, but not in ICU anymore. I'll probably be here for a while, since I still have the pneumonia, but it's going away...Yeah. I'll try to be on here a bit every day, but no guarantees. I still get tired really easily and cough all the time, but it's better than being dead. Although sometimes I wonder why I'm not dead already. And I wonder if I should just give up and kill myself before the medicine and disease get a chance to. But then I think of you guys, and Jimmy, and my family and friends...And the feeling goes away. I love you all so much. The doctors are still mystified over how the hell I made a 360 degree turnaround...But I say it's because of all the prayers and thoughts you all have been sending out. heart

Posted by: Jounou Fri Jan 27, 2006 @ 03:10pm

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Kryzalis
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Commented on: Fri Jan 27, 2006 @ 03:28pm


	heart heart

Commented on: Fri Jan 27, 2006 @ 03:50pm


	Welcome back Jounou!! 4laugh heart heart

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Vaguely_Imaginary
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Commented on: Fri Jan 27, 2006 @ 05:08pm


	Thank God you're okay. biggrin heart Maybe he does exist...

Commented on: Fri Jan 27, 2006 @ 07:53pm


	THANK GOD YOUR STILL HERE JOUNOU!!! Im so glad you made it! Hopefully your immune system will rev up again, and you'll make it for more than a few months. We were so worried about you........ We all love you so much, thanks for comming back to us! Try to stick around for a while at least.

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Commented on: Sat Jan 28, 2006 @ 03:03am


	Heya lover boy. Sorry that I haven't been around to check up on you and comment and everything. crying I was really busy with finals these past few weeks. Gods, I'm so happy that you're doing better. I really hope that you survive hugs tight Take care and don't give up hope!

Commented on: Sat Jan 28, 2006 @ 03:08am


	Oh thank God you're alive! tears of joy hugs heart heart heart

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Commented on: Sat Jan 28, 2006 @ 07:31am


	-gladness and concern-

Commented on: Sun Jan 29, 2006 @ 03:48am


	Wow, it sounds like you're getting better. You're winning the fight, don't give up now!

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Commented on: Sun Jan 29, 2006 @ 05:45pm


	You're finally back! huggles

Commented on: Mon Jan 30, 2006 @ 11:01pm


	I was concerned, I admit, but it's good to have ya back. Get well soon, ya lug! 3nodding

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Commented on: Mon Jan 30, 2006 @ 11:15pm


	Oh Derek! I've missed you so much and i'm so happy to hear that you're still alive. You're such a great person, and you deserve to have a good life and someone out there appreciates you. Im not a church-going Christian or whatever, but some god, not sure who's, really believes in you and wants you to have a good life. I hope Jimmy is still pulling along too, and I love you, and just dont give up and dont think that you ever should.

Commented on: Tue Jan 31, 2006 @ 02:35am


	HOLY JESUS! You died?! gonk gonk gonk I am so happy you're still alive, so happy! And you'e not going to give up without a fight sweetheart, because we're all praying and there;s no way I'm going to let you lose. Derek, we all want you in this world for as long as you were originally supposed to be, and there are plenty of people that are keeping their ribbons by their beds. Long live Derek! I'm so glad you're back.

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Commented on: Sat Feb 04, 2006 @ 02:37am


	<3333333333333333 Seriously, you have no idea how happy I am to hear/see this. I'm like, melting into happiness. -hug- This made my day. I got out of work, and I was all, "Check on Jounou." =D <333333333333 All I can do is heart all over the place. <3 <3 <3 <3 I dunno what to say, but there's tears of joy in my eyes. It's like, we totally won a battle or something. You know, like, when you're little and you overcome some huge fear or other and you get that warm fuzzy glow in your belly? Well, I have that now because you're back. And I've got fuzzies. <33333

Commented on: Sat Feb 04, 2006 @ 03:15am


	i miss you so much and i want you tyo live ILL GIVE YOU MY BODY JSUT LIVE!!!!!!! i miss you so much crying heart heart heart

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