View User's Journal

Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals



Latent Visibility Derek? Are you afraid to die? Well...Kind of. I'm scared of leaving everyone I love behind, and going to this...place... I don't know what's after death, and I think that's what I'm scared of most. If I am going to go this otherworld, I don't want to have to go alone. I love living, and I don't think it's fair that my time should be up already. I know life's not fair, but why does this have to happen to me? And I'm scared of how people are going to react. I'm worried that I'll just be forgotten a few months after my death. I want to have made an impression on people's hearts, and I want to still be able to live on through them...I don't know if I've done that, though. Other than that, I'm sort of at peace with it. I've accepted that I'm going to die, and that it'll be painful. I just wish it wasn't so.

Posted by: Jounou Sat Apr 08, 2006 @ 04:23am

User Comments: [6] [add]

muted tsunami
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Sat Apr 08, 2006 @ 03:25pm


	You've made an impact. And we're all going to miss you so much. We don't want you to go either. <3 - Noky(o)

Commented on: Sat Apr 08, 2006 @ 03:28pm


	): You have, Derek, you have. Left an impression on me, I mean. I could never forget you, ever. Ever. I'll be talking about you with my grandkids. And I swear, if I could do anything about it, I would, but I guess it's something none of us have any power over. It's not fair. I wish it was. I think and worry about you every day, I cried when I read this, I'll cry when you die. I'm sorry if I can't be of any help or consolation.

Shriekie
Community Member

Offline

Zelkiiro
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Sun Apr 09, 2006 @ 02:34am


	Meh. The thought of death depresses me, because: - All the wonderful people I met online will never know I'm gone. - All the GRAPHIC expletive in my daily life won't care. - I won't be around to see any of it unfold. Dammit, I wanna hear my own funeral service! gonk

Commented on: Mon Apr 10, 2006 @ 04:15am


	you've made a great impression, Derek. We won't forget you, and I know for sure Jimmy wont

spndx3141
Community Member

Offline

Kanshisha no Yume
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Sun Jun 18, 2006 @ 03:22am


	Hun, you've left an amazing impact on my life. I wouldn't be able to ever forget you. I've never forgotten anyone who has ever died in my life, because each person means so much. I was thinking about you last night, and I know that I will think about you forever more whether you're alive or not hugs

Commented on: Tue Nov 06, 2007 @ 09:40pm


	It's been a long time. I doubt that anyone ever reads this, or visits it. But I want you to know Derek that I think about you from time to time and that you made an impact on MY life. You're not forgotten.

Kanshisha no Yume
Community Member

Offline

User Comments: [6] [add]

Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals