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I stumbled last night.
I stumbled and almost fell.

But I caught myself in my act.
And I knew better.

It hurt at first, but now.
I feel wonderful.
The day is fine and perfect.

People still suck, but that won't change.
They've sucked ever since the cave times.
Haha.

I'm happy with where I am.
And the course I'm on.
Its just fine.

I'm ashamed to say I almost let my support buddy down.
I almost fell into myself again.
But goddamn it, I pulled myself the ******** out.
And I am ******** proud of that s**t.

I don't think we were really meant to be anything other than friends.
It took us a couple times to realize that, haha.
But I'm completely happy with being a friend.
Or someone you just talk to because you're bored.
Completely chill with that.

Let's go.
Out of the cage.
Kait's waiting outside.
And you're just straddling the bar.
I'm standing shyly right next to the threshold.
I thought you beckoned me to stay - the Guilded Cage, our home.
But you weren't.
You're stuck just like me.
Everyone's waiting outside.
And for the first time in my seventeen years of life, I'm ready to leave.
Kick this dark lifestyle to the curb.
I want the sunshine.
The sunshine will be our spot light, I almost forgot that.

I almost let go of Kait's hand.
Now I'm gripping tighter than ever, hope she won't mind.
Because I'm deathly scared of the outside.
I'm going to drag you with me though. Actually. I'm going to push you out. (:
You won't mind, I don't think.
I want you to feel the sunshine too.
With Kait and I.


Its dumb to ponder over the things life throws at you.
It happens for a reason.
Everything does.
Just take what it throws. Maybe not with a smile. Maybe not with a frown.
All the same. Take what you get. It may leave sooner than you think - so just cherish the memories you have.
It may stay. Only time will tell.
That's what I've learned.
I've tried to change this. It doesn't work.
Sooo. I'll let life guide me along on its little boat.
Off my island of isolation. Let's see where we go, shall we?