mood: irritated
CHOKECHAIN; 3OH!3
It may be that time.
Never thought I'd be here.
Bitchy journal time!
Bitchy journal time!
I said I'd never burn a bridge.
And I never really have my entire life.
I may scorch it a little.
Ruin the pathway, but its still standing.
I'm scared to burn what I've created.
But it seems is already half way burned.
Connor and I really ******** up our relationship, haha.
To the point where I don't think it will ever be fixed.
Ever.
Which really disappoints me, and I know its partially my fault. Probably a lot my fault haha..
Brittney and I like hardly ever talk anymore.
I kinda pushed her away when she got her boyfriend.
Still kinda am pushing her away, but I don't mean to.
I ******** adore her to death. But since her msn broke we never get to talk.
Shes busy with school, band, and a boy.
I have work, school, and just more work.
Lisa and I.
Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh. She's in the puppy phase with her boyfriend...
So I pretty much will get booted out of the picture, and I'm kinda butthurt because I feel like a third wheel.
"oh i date u if zach ******** up"
Um. No...I don't like being the second choice. I should always be the ******** first choice if you really do like me.
Idk I'm kinda pissed at her. But not really? If that makes sense.
Ughhhh. I just don't see whats sooo ******** wrong with me.
It's probably because I'm super shy and I don't go out there and talk to people.
But whhhy can't they come to me ? haha. Guess that's too much to ask.
And I know I'm ALWAYS going to compare them to a certain someone; I like auto do it. I don't even mean to.
I've been holding this baaack foreverr. I wish I could just be like "hey this is bothering me about you." But I can't. The only person I've come close to doing it to is Brittney, because I hella trust her. Connor? Idk I. I'm scared of his reaction so I just keep my mouth shut since it always seems like he's gonna go out of his way to hurt my feelings. Lmao. And Lisa? Idk. I tell her I guess. Idk.
Soooo many changes. Don't know where I'll go. Don't know whose hand I'm gonna hold. Will I do it alone? Will I do it alone? Numbah one. My numbah one should always be me.
CHOKECHAIN; 3OH!3
It may be that time.
Never thought I'd be here.
Bitchy journal time!
Bitchy journal time!
I said I'd never burn a bridge.
And I never really have my entire life.
I may scorch it a little.
Ruin the pathway, but its still standing.
I'm scared to burn what I've created.
But it seems is already half way burned.
Connor and I really ******** up our relationship, haha.
To the point where I don't think it will ever be fixed.
Ever.
Which really disappoints me, and I know its partially my fault. Probably a lot my fault haha..
Brittney and I like hardly ever talk anymore.
I kinda pushed her away when she got her boyfriend.
Still kinda am pushing her away, but I don't mean to.
I ******** adore her to death. But since her msn broke we never get to talk.
Shes busy with school, band, and a boy.
I have work, school, and just more work.
Lisa and I.
Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh. She's in the puppy phase with her boyfriend...
So I pretty much will get booted out of the picture, and I'm kinda butthurt because I feel like a third wheel.
"oh i date u if zach ******** up"
Um. No...I don't like being the second choice. I should always be the ******** first choice if you really do like me.
Idk I'm kinda pissed at her. But not really? If that makes sense.
Ughhhh. I just don't see whats sooo ******** wrong with me.
It's probably because I'm super shy and I don't go out there and talk to people.
But whhhy can't they come to me ? haha. Guess that's too much to ask.
And I know I'm ALWAYS going to compare them to a certain someone; I like auto do it. I don't even mean to.
I've been holding this baaack foreverr. I wish I could just be like "hey this is bothering me about you." But I can't. The only person I've come close to doing it to is Brittney, because I hella trust her. Connor? Idk I. I'm scared of his reaction so I just keep my mouth shut since it always seems like he's gonna go out of his way to hurt my feelings. Lmao. And Lisa? Idk. I tell her I guess. Idk.
Soooo many changes. Don't know where I'll go. Don't know whose hand I'm gonna hold. Will I do it alone? Will I do it alone? Numbah one. My numbah one should always be me.
