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Annnnd my stress level got too high.
Again. haha.


You told me you were scared.
What if we ******** up what we had?
What if we weren't the same after?
You said you'd die without me.

Those are probably the sweetest words anyone's ever said to me.
Online or offline.

Don't you know I'd die without you too?
I'm sure you do, haha.

I felt second place.
But I've always been first.
I'm just a selfish, hurt, girl.

I'm scared now.
I'm scared to actually connect with people.
I don't know where I'm going.
I've strayed my path.
So I come across as headstrong.
Independent ideas.

But that's who I'm still trying to become.
I'm molding myself into her.
Into a girl who's not scared to take that step to fall in love.
Into that girl who's not afraid to connect and open up with people.

My light was eroded away.
My fire, snuffed out into smoke.
It wasn't his fault.
It wasn't my fault.
Its just how I naturally react to situations.

Its how I recoil and deal with my pain.

So I figured I'd change.
And become something I've wanted to be, its turning out pretty nicely.

I know I won't be able to push the old me all the way out.
I gladly accept that.
Since this is the first and last thing I want to change.

Change frightens me.

So this is a biiiig asssss step for me bro.
And Lisa's gonna be there with me.
And Brittney.
And Kait.
And Beth.
And Ethan.
And Zak.
And everyone else.