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dis is whur i b***h
Stop. Stop.
Stop. I've gotta stop.
I moved forward too fast.
Its catching up to me.
The cliff crumbles at my feet.

I can't save anyone.
Not myself.
The one I want to save most.
It wasn't you, her, or him.
It was me.

I don't look inside myself.
I ignore my emotions.
I ignore my heart.
I don't want to accept that there's a problem.

But there are problems.
Lots.
Building up, making a nice castle in my chest and brain.
******** you.
******** me.
******** her.
******** you all.

They call me selfish when I hold back my problems.
Because I know someone else is probably having a harder time.
I let them open up to me.
I let them talk to me.
All while I remain silent. Never asked if something's wrong.
Not my place to burden you with my problems.

Bottle full of emotions.
No one knows any of my thoughts anymore.
And when he says he knows me, its empty. Not me. A shell he once knew.

I wanna save Lisa from the problems of her life.
But she doesn't listen to me, why should she? She's been told something different all her life.
I wanna save Connor from his drug problems.
He's so deep within them, and in love with them, I can't. He doesn't want my help anymore.

I'm a selfish monster.
I have no real friends, I use you. Then leave you.
Emptiness is my gift to you. Empty friendship. Empty love. Nothing in my heart for any of you. Its all for me.
Safer that way.
I'm receding back into my former self.

I won't try to help you anymore.
I can't even help myself.
Me, Me, Me from now on.





 
 
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