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I'd been promising Zak and Connor for like
...Two years to go down there.
We'd made all these plans to see s**t and have fun.
But I'd bail on them cuz of Connor
To be honest.
I was scared that it'd be awkward with him.
I've come super close to seeing him like 2 times too.
Once when he evacuated from a hurricane
And once when we were both like an hour away from each other.

Now why do I wanna go see him now?
Uhh cuz we're actually at a point where we have a good relationship.
We don't bite at each other's faces.

Why did I bail on VA?
Honestly.
Because I didn't think Lisa wanted to see me all that bad.
And two because she freaked the ******** out over Connor.
I knew it'd prob be awkward and s**t.
Because I honestly have no idea why she flipped s**t.

And wow.
Bail on me when life gets real.
Wow wow wow.
You say 'omg connor's a f*****t'
But you know?
Connor didn't bail on me for real life.
He's busy as hell and still has time to text me. Or call me.
And Kait.
******** I know she has a s**t ton of school stuff.
But what? What was that?
She still texts me and talks to me on msn.
Brittney has band, piano lessons to give, a boyfriend, and school work.
But she stillll ******** sends me good morning texts.

Even when my life got so real.
Like it has lately.
I still find time to get online and check and see if Lisa's on.
I knew Kait would get pissed at me for going to NO instead.
Cuz I knew she wanted to see me.

Ha.
Connor does notttt help me with my life decisions.
Puh lease. The only thing he's told me watch out for is Jason.
Haha. I can take care of myself just fine.
Don't use that bitter undertone when talking about Connor and I being bff.
Holyshit that pisses me off so bad.
You didnt get to see the BA Connor me and kait saw.
You didn't get to see how much he just ******** helped me through rough patches in my life.
You did NOT get to see how protective of me he was.
You didn't get to see s**t.
All you got to see was connor and i fighting.
But there's more to us than that.
You just DON'T want to see it.

Lisa you are my bff.
Just as much as Connor is
Just as much as Brittney is.
But you go out and bail on me first thing?
I've never bailed on you.
lol
I wanted to ******** talk about it cuz I knew it upset you.
I wanted to make sure we were on GOOD terms.
Not awkward terms.
I wanted to make sure you were OKAY.

But excuse me.
For wanting to talk about problems we had.
Relationships with people.
You're GOING TO GET HURT EVENTUALLY.
But that's why you ******** TALK IT OVER AND PATCH IT THE ******** UP.
omgcaps.

I didnt really want to be the one to say it but. Okay wever I'm pissed enough.
Lisa you're a hypocrite.
Connor's totally right about you on that.
You say that you're not gonna hurt me.
That you love me so much.
But you go out and be all "well i dont give a ********.
i dont wanna talk about it.
i'm going to go have real life and ignore my bff."

******** ******** s**t god.
Connor and I aren't even that ******** close.
We text each other at like ungodly times in the morning.
And lately he seems off about something idk.
He won't talk to me about it.
Then Lisa goes and bails on me?
Ha!
I'm pretty good with picking my bff's right?

One's a stoner that does dangerous s**t all ******** day. But can turn around and be super cool and super sweet.
One's a hypocrite that would rather spend more time with a boy SHE HATES than me. But she's the funniest, cutest girl ever.

Brittney's okay with me right now. As she usually is. We just hardly get to talk, but she makes a ******** effort.
Kait's usually always fine with me because we talk s**t out. And just kinda..Make up.

******** it! Fine.
I'll go chill with Connor.
And have the best time of my life (:
Since I mean.
He is my 'number one forever and always'.

But this is just me being a bitter, mean b***h.
My usual self heart