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I don't understand?
Did I do something...wrong?

I don't get you.
One minute its like you wanna be all over me, and have everything to do with me.
The next you just disappear.

It makes my tummy hurt.
In anticipation.

I mean its not like we're dating..
So I guess there's no real reason to talk to me everyday.

And wtf.
Why does everyone like Lisa and Kait know more about you than I do.
Wtf.

I guess I'm just confused.
Since I mean, I kinda dumped Jason to pursue him.
And then he just disappears.
Uhh guess I'll back up man.
Didn't mean to step on your toes.


vvvvv i didn't dig any of this bitchyness, so i crossed it out olol. vvvvvv
edit: wow nightmare.
i havent had one in for-freaking-ever.
it was about demons and s**t eating people's souls. and about that kid who died in the car accident. it was stressful. and something about connor saying something to me. like 'im only talking to you for my enjoyment, you're like a toy' idk. it was something mean though. then he like turned around and had me on his love list or something. it was just a mess of horribleness. lol

now i just gotta wake up.
go to a job i ******** hate.
come home! to an awkward living place.

OH AND I GOTTA BE MELODRAMATIC ABOUT EVERYTHING.
whut.
wtf. lol. god im bitchy today wtfff.

i think its cuz i gotta go to that funeral. and those things make me really uncomfortable.
and farmer was kidding with me, but it was really really harsh. i actually cried a little LOL.
jason wants to hang out a lot more, and im just like 'idk i dont think so.' cuz u know the whole 'hey im going to stop hanging out with you because i like ____ '

AND THEN
i'm confused as s**t about the whole connor thing.
idk why he hasn't talked to me.
idk why he told kait he doesnt like me drinking, but not me.
idk why he told lisa he doesnt enjoy pot anymore, but not me.

i guess im just used to telling him everything and expecting him to tell me that stuff.
like autotell me. but i'd really have to bring it up? i guess. its just not stuff we usually talk about. i mean im pretty sure he knows i dont like him smoking weed everyday. i like him sober, but i can accept his bad habit. and deal.

and if you don't like me drinking just say so, lol. i'll prob stop.

wow. i guess i just did step on his toes and got too close.
i mean i had been wanting to say it for a week now.
but i kinda wish i hadn't ever.
dood idk if that's even what made him poof. idk.
i'll just wait i guess.